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My New Years' message and request, I
sent this out in e-mail and thought that I would
leave the message here to share with visitors too.
From: "William D. Daly" <william_daly@telus.net>
Subject: Remembrance and Love - Two of life's
beautiful gifts.
Dear Nina: Thank you for
your beautiful messages. I to have lost my daughter
recenly and I know the joy of having her for 36 year
and the sadness of her departure . She was suffering
so from that deadly disease Cancer. which travelled
from the calf of her leg through all her organs and
finally to her brain in five short
years. I only wish I could
have found the words of love that you
found. I have
been comfoted by the thought that she no longer
suffers. Thank you Nina and God
Bless. Bill Daly
Dear Bill; Please forgive the
delay in responding to your mail. On
January 4th, I had orthopedic surgery to totally
replace both of my knees at the same time (injured
in a lawn-tractor accident in Spring of
1998). After the surgery I had to go to
another hospital for some intensive
rehabilitation. It has been a long and painful
month and I'm only about halfway there yet! The pain
is too great to spend more than the minimal time
necessary at the computer and I'm even behind in
that. ~ How glad I am
that you found your way to Erics' memorial and the
grief-support pages of my website. Yes, I was truly
blessed, for I had the most loving and beautiful
support of my chat-room family which reached out to
embrace and uphold me as I went through the most
painful time of my life when losing Eric as I did.
I'm glad that you found comfort here too.
~ To have been blessed to have your
precious daughter for 36 years, and to have had time
to tie up loose ends and say and share feelings and
thoughts with each other before she had to leave you
here until you both meet again and resume your
relationship in eternity.... was certainly a blessed
way to part. ~ I hope that
you will write again if you ever feel a need to
share or just draw courage and strength from the
various sharings of myself and others in the
guest-book (and other pages) of Erics' memorial
site. ~ There are many
of us and much to draw from as you face the
days and times ahead. I will always respond. I
care. ~ Yours because I'm
His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
"American Legion Post 27" <post27@gte.net>
Subject: Your web site
Great web site. Thanks for placing the POW/MIA
~ banner.
HHHinkle ~ American Legion_Post 27
You are most welcome Mr Hinkle, and
thank you also, for serving our country and
your fellow Americans and others. God bless
and keep you.
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
CMVERNON@webtv.net (Mindy Cody Vernon)
Subject: I really liked your poem
I likes your poem about the Unwanted baby It gave me
goose bumps when I read
it. ~ You
Have nice work. Mindy
Thank you, Mindy, for letting us know you
visited our site and were blessed. I hope you will
return and see more of it.
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From:
LANEEMUSIC@aol.com
Subject: It was such a joy to see your site
Nina: Thanks so much for sharing so
much of your life's experiences with the
world, exposed for all to
see. I know it took great courage
to speak out on some of your issues you have
dealt with (like your marriage problems and even
Eric's death.) I can sympathize
with you in the death issue too. My dad
just past on this past July. It
was a sudden heart attack. There was no
warning or
anything. He died in his bed in the arms
of his wonderful wife (Mom). She
has
really been having a rough time with it too.
My sister , her name is Nita.. lives
right up the road from mom and I think something
snapped in her mentally or spiritually when daddy
died. She has not been the same since....I
have really been worried about her and
confused about it. I haven't talked to her...I
don't want to offend her...But it was like a part of
her left when he died.........My husband thinks
something is really wrong with her
now.......Daddy was a preacher of the gospel and we
were a very close family.......We all expected to
all go up to be with the Lord together......at
the same time.........but He went on ahead.......We
had
mentally planned, prepared and really believed this
. We believed in the rapture of the
church of Christ. And we firmly believed that this
was the last days and that the Lord was soon coming
and surely the Lord would not take daddy away when
it is so near His second coming..........I do not
know how to approach Nita on this issue
really....... We even took a trip to Israel for Mom
since that was something mother had always wanted to
do. Mother paid for it
all.......but it was Nita's idea to go.
We went in Oct. Dad had just died in
July. I guess they were just trying to
look forward to doing something to get through
the grief of losing him. All the time we
were in Israel, mother kept spending the
money. Getting in the purse pulling out
the cash, shekels seemingly trying to give away the
grief. I wanted to say so
much.....it won't work mother.....we shouldn't have
done this.....we could
have gone to Florida and had as good a time as we
had there.....We were all on our toes all the time
with walls all around us, afraid to spoil
mother's trip. Nita made all the decisions as
to where we would go, and when and everything.
We (my two other sisters and mother and the guide
mother hired) had to just go by Nitas orders.
It could have been so much fun under different
circumstances.... Back to dad's
death..... Dad's death was such a shock.
though. You don't think you will ever
get over it. And the way you
described it , is so much like what I have felt so
much about Daddy...You are such a wonderful, gifted
writer. I f you haven't gotten a book
published yet, I would be amazed for all of
your writing is wonderful. You
definitely had me in tears. I am a
gospel/country songwriter and I appreciate
good writing. I am good with the music but the
lyrics I write could definitely be
better. You have inspired me
today, I must say. ~ Also on
a different note. As of late, my
marriage of twenty two years has been going
through some changes. I don't know if it is the
change of life creeping up on us unawares or
what. I know what it sortof feels like to not know
what to expect out of your spouse from one minute to
the next and although my husband has not cheated on
me, I am certain, yet I know he is going
through a change. He is forty one, I am
forty. Our two boy's are twenty one and
18. We have been through many crisis
with the challenge of raising boys growing
with (Tourette Syndrome a neurological disorder
which caused learning deficits and lots of
problems.) So I know what it is like to
have children who are different. And the marriage
has held up through all of this (believe it or
not). Thanks to the Lord Jesus Christ. I
know I would not have made it without his
constant help and all of the holy guardian angels
who have constantly been near my children and
us in this world. The boy's have inspired me
so much in my writing gospel music, I cannot tell
you how much.
Although I have also been through such depressing
periods in my life that sometimes I really wanted to
end it all too. But the Lord kept me
going. That
is the only strength I had through those times. I
just called on Jesus to help crying out, I need you
Jesus, and an answer , a peace would always come and
satisfy my soul and give me enough hope to stand and
go on a little longer. Then soon a song
would be born. Those were very
special moments that I have known in the past
years. But now of late, all of my family is
changing so much. I guess I am fearing getting
old a little bit. Maybe I am going
through fear that I need not have, like fear that
Tim, (husband) will get tired of me, will go through
the change and I won't please him as
much. God help us get through this
another thing.......
It seems like life is so full of so many changes,
people change, I change I know I do. But thank God,
He never does and that we can rely on always.
His hand has always picked me up when I have fallen
down as we travel this mountain road called life. He
will see us to the other side. Abba
Father, in Yeshua's Name
http://www.geocities.com/nashville/stage/5021/index.html
MY SITE ~ Lanee'
Ray
p.s. please let me know when you finish this. I am
dying to know what happened to you and Roger.......
Dear Lanee; Thank you for your intimacy
in communication.... I feel that we have
really met and become friends across the miles that
may lay between us physically... Our spirits are
bonded in the body of Christ to which we have both
been adopted as His. On the 4th of January, I
had to have both of my knees totally replaced (due
to a lawntractor accident the year before). I
was in rehabilitation hospital for two weeks after
the initial time here in the local hospital... and
have only been home a few weeks now.... Having both
done at the same time makes it quite a lengthy road
back and painfully limiting at this point.... So I
cannot spend much time at the computer.... (too
painful). Life can really get quite
challenging at times! ~ You
have certainly had a very difficult year of
changes, and a variety of consequences
following your dads' early transition.... I sure do
know and identify with your feelings of being
abandoned (left behind by your loved one). It haunts
me to remember the words I once said to Eric so
sincerely..... "Please don't ever leave me in
this world alone." I didn't mean not to leave
home - just not to die before me.... Odd, isn't
it? I believe it was after a deep
discussion we'd had on the topic of suicidal
temptations that we sometimes face for one reason or
another.... I think that most of us have,
whether willing to confess it or not, had times of
great physical or emotional pain and feeling
overwhelmed by circumstances and desire to
escape.... Not so much an actual desire to
commit suicide as much as the feeling that we
just can't endure anymore. These are
temptations that even Christ faced in His
"wilderness days"... I'm sure
that you feel the comfort at the peaceful and gentle
ending and transition from this life to eternity
that your dad was given. We would not ask that God
send them from there to here again! But
it is so lonely without them accessible to us here.
But what we do have are the memories.... and what
blessed ones you have! More than
most! ~ I will write again
tomorrow - for I want to reply to your message in
full and have other things to say in response....
but it is extremely painful for me to stay for long
here. I am still on pain medication and have to
limit my times at any one activity.... The new knees
will get rather stiffened when not moving
about..... ~ Thank you for writing
and I hope you will continue to share and visit.
~ Did you find your way to my 1993 prayer "Where
Are You Lord?" I hope that you might print
it out and give it to your mother and maybe
your sister also? It is one of the
things I dearly hope to have published in some form,
for so very many people have said how much it helped
them (even as it did for me when I wrote
it). I will write
again. ~ Love and hugs
for a spiritual sister,
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
Jfinished@aol.com
Subject: RE:Guest Book
Hi Nina, ~ What a great
place to spend a cold winter's afternoon. As
the snow is falling and the wind howling
around outside I came across your site.
Just heat up the coffee sit back and relax with you,
nice and warm. I too have tried to be of some
help to those who have suffered loss of a loved
one. I started my site with that
in mind. I lost my husband 4 years ago and my
Mom 2 years later. I guess I still look for
those I have things in common with, broken
hearts. Computers and my web site have all been new
things I've gotten into since Harry
died. Please stop by my site and visit
and leave me a note. http://www.geocities.com/Wellesley/Commons/3487/
Right now my friend and I are trying to put up one
new page a week if we can.
God Bless you for your compassion and
help. ~ Joy
Dear Joy, I posted the following to your
guestbook today, having finally finished
your whole site. I am also sending a separate
e-mail with two awards for your site. Love
& hugs - ~me
<-------> My dear, dear Joy....
Thank you for inviting me here to your site when you
visited mine and sent mail to guestbook. Sorry that
it took me so long to view it all - but my time is
limited sitting as yet - for I just had both of my
knees totally replaced after an accident last year
which tore both meniscus in two. After their removal
I tried to continue life without them - too stubborn
to believe I couldn't - but then - I had to at least
give it a try! *s* I `SO enjoyed your work! I am
also an artist when I have the time - but it
is not a profession ~ for my God given talents are
in writing more than sketching. I was born in
Cook County hospital in Chicago, Illinois, too... We
seem to have many things in common.... not just our
grief - but our sources of joy as well. *rvbg!*
~ My favorite flower is the humble daisy,
another shared appreciation, obviously. The
framed picture of your painting was just so
lovely! I hope that you will share more
of your work as you have time! I visited as
soon as I received your e-mail- but wanted to wait
until I'd seen it all (to date). It is
refreshing to see your original work here - for
so many sites do their own versions of the
same "favorites" around the cyber
community.... You are a lovely and refreshing site
to visit and to reflect upon. Having finished
my tour of your cyber home - I am hoping that
you
will continue to share and create more and more! God
is blessing through, for sure. Love, prayer and hugs
here for you and your family. Write
if you ever find you need comfort or
support... I will keep you in a special place
in my heart and prayers. ~~~~~~waving
"Bye" for now, dear one....
yours because I'm "His", your Gypsy,
(Nina)
Subject: Re:
Award ~ Hi Gypsy, I feel so
honored by what you wrote and you are the First one
to want to give my site an award. You don't
know how much that means to me. I sort of feel
like any one can go around and fill out the forms on
peoples sites to see if they can get an award
but there is no award more precious then the
one given from someone's heart without a word being
said. As soon as I get them I will pass them on
to my friend Carol who sets up my web pages for
me. You've just made my day and evening too. Isn't
it strange how it just doesn't take a whole lot
sometimes to make us feel better. Thank
you for
being my little ray of sunshine
today. I wanted to tell you that
my Mom
had both of her knees replaced too. One was done two
years before she died.
Then the next year she had the other one done. So I
do know that it's a very
painful thing to go through and recovery is a very
long drawn-out process
too. I hope that the pain your going through now is
at least not as bad as it
was before surgery. Are you using a walker or are
you trying to make a go of
it on your own now? I've bookmarked your site as I
still haven't finished all
of it. Guess I'm not as fast a gal as you.
***giggles*** Looking forward to
hearing from you again.
~ Huggers.....Joy
Hello Joy; I always love
to hear that I've lifted a spirit - though I give
the credit to Him, it feels so good to be a part of
it all and so fulfilling to be used by Him as His
body now on earth.... As we do His will here (which
all comes down to the same thing - to LOVE others),
we become ever more like Him in loving and that is a
wonderful blessing & joy to be the conduit of
such love.... ~ There
are about 375 pages on my site - (on the front table
you will find an "art exhibit" link which
contains pencil and pastel sketches) ... so even a
"fast" person visiting my site would have
a time sticking to it all at once.
And - there is such a scope or topics too. Just the
guestbook archives alone would take days to cover -
but oh - how beautiful are all those dear souls who
shared my grief as well as their own for others who
come searching for strength, encouragement, wisdom
(of experience) and comfort. Sometimes
it's very lonely to grieve when surrounded by
well-meaning others in our lives who seem to
invariably come to say that we need to "get on
with life" and "put it all behind us"
and they begin to be uncomfortable with the passage
of time in which we still want to talk about the
life of our loved one no longer earthbound with
us. ~ SO
then.... in the pages of the archives of the
guestbooks, so many feelings and thoughts as well as
experiences are there to reinforce and validate the
love and cherishing of memories or the loneliness
that remains even in the midst of the people around
us. I have found that the loneliness is
more comfortable when we are alone.... for when it
is there in the midst of people... it seems more
acute and painful because if we show it, we
discomfort others.... and that tends to make it more
acute for us when we try to hide or disguise it for
their sake. Even after 4 years....
every beautiful sunrise or sunset, a new song or
movie - a great meal or whatever.... I find myself
thinking/reflecting on how Eric would have really
liked it... and I smile at the memories and shared
times that allow me to be aware of what he would
think or feel if he were with me experiencing it
too. I am comfortable with
Erics' internal presence/residence within and beside
me. Sometimes he even gives me strength and courage
as I think of what he would think of whatever it is
I am doing, thinking, feeling or
facing. ~ A year
and a half after Erics' death, I met my fiance'
through the site. He was doing a
search regarding prayer and I was the first link he
found and read my "What Is Prayer" piece
and enjoyed it so much that he wrote to me and we
became good friends because of our shared love of
God and His word! A year later his wife
died and the following year we became officially
engaged. That's quite incredible
when you think about it all! *G* I
was pretty new and not well "listed"
or exposed... and we both came to feel that in a way
- Eric brought us together - for it was to publish
Erics' work (far from finished yet)... that I took
up learning to publish and create (with Front
Page). I also felt strongly
that the only thing that could bring meaning
out of the senseless and tragic waste of a brilliant
and talented life at the threshold of what it could
do and mean to the world... to do that section
"The
Firebird" where I shared the accident
scenes and the message to raise the consciousness of
what a simple carelessness of the homeowners who
left the leftover building materials laying loose
behind their home for a year - and the passersby who
saw that roll of insulation laying beside the road
that day - alongside of the road where that fateful
moment in time came that Eric passed at the
same time the wind picked it up and blew it into the
path of his car where the rusty wire burst open and
the bright silver material hooked onto the front of
his bumper and covered the car windshield and
drivers' side - and the wire wrapped the underside
and right wheel axle so tightly that the car went
out of control and the car slammed against the tree
and in less that thirty seconds - Eric was taken
from our world. So, as I say at
the bottom of those terrible pictures - if even ONE
life is spared by a viewer who sees the potential
hazards of such a material and/or carelessness...
then something will come of that fatality and other
injuries and fatalities will be prevented.... What
could be more meaningful? Only God
will know the "score" or measure of
difference it will make in the world or lives of
others... but that is just fine with me.... I an
content to know that something good can come of
something so terrible. That is
what God promises us in His Word... He will use all
things for good to those who trust and allow
Him.... ~ Joy, I thought I
covered your whole site - but I only saw that your
mother died as you talk about your losses... and in
the remembrance section, but is there a place where
you speak of her death? It must
have been an unexpected death else I doubt she would
have gone through the knee replacements! ?
*sad* About mine - it's slowly but surely
healing and rehabilitating, and certainly better
than the whole year before (after the meniscus
removals)! It made 19 surgical
procedures in 7 years though - and I have been
SOOooooooo modified! And also - I
believe, have reached a lifetime-tolerance of
surgeries! I don't want to ever
have another!
I do walk unassisted though. It
takes time for your brain to "connect" to
the presence and movement of the new knees... so I
don't feel as sure-footed as before - so I go
carefully and stay near a grab-point or the wall.
*s* The worst part is that I can't
sit at my main computer to work.
I'm a lifelong writer and write hours each and every
day... With the laptop here, I am limited to short
times
due to the discomfort of positions to be in to use
it... Actually, the new knees don't like to be long
in ANY position - it is more comfortable to be on
the move. I have finally resumed
sleeping all night again without the pain waking me
even once! Thank you for asking about it.
Would like to know about your mothers death if you
feel like talking about it.
~ Gee - didn't mean to get carried
away this morning! I look forward to more sharing
between us too. I don't know if
you read the "Miss Brandi" section of my
site... a lot of her special story is there too. She
was my seventh-born grandchild of 8
total. I've had her all her life
and she refers to me as mommy - though I personally
preferred the "Nana" title which she used
for me until she was about three and began to want
to call me Mommy instead. I would
like to hear about your children too.
Love and hugs, Yours because I'm
His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
"Hugh Thompson" <hthom9426@worldnet.att.net>
Subject: I Just Saw Your Son's Memroial Web Site
Hi my name is Kathy Thompson and I have just
spent the past two day reading your Memorial Tribute
to your son Eric. It is a very
warm yet heart wrenching tribute. What a great way
to leave your son's "legacy" to the
world. I lost my daughter, Melanie
Brooke Thompson, on February 15, 1999 in a single
car accident. She too was killed
instantly. I have tried to deal
with my feelings, fears and grief by creating a
memorial page for her also. It is
not as sophisticated as yours but was created with a
lot love. I created it as a way of
releasing my grief and with the hopes of keeping
Melanie's Memory alive. And to
help leave her "Mark" on the world
also. If you would like to
see it the address is http://home.att.net/~kth45/index.html
There are only four pages reached by text
links. One link is to a memorial
provided by TCFATLANTA. ~ I
also keep various journals that I write my thoughts,
feelings, anguish and sorrow in.
One day I hope to be able to comprise them into a
readable "journal of grief" in order to
pass on Melanie's name and memory.
Maybe I could even help another grieving mother like
you have helped me. Thank-you.
~
Sincerely, Kathy Thompson (Melanie's
Mama)
Dear Kathy; Thank you for
sharing with me about your visit and about "Melly"
and your loss as well as your
healing. I signed your
guestbook while there as
below; Forgive, please, the delay
in response to your e-mail. I wanted to wait until I
had visited you. I am sending you my
site award also in next e-mail.
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Hello Kathy; You have done
a beautiful tribute to your beautiful
daughter, Melanie. Thank you
for writing to me and visiting my son, Erics' site
and sharing yours with me.
It is a beautiful and worthwhile thing for us to
focus on their lives rather than their
death.... Ours were beautiful and
well-loved well-lived children. I hope that her
friends visit and leave you some of their
experiences and memories to share.
I enjoyed getting to know your "Melly". I
hope also, that this will heal and comfort you along
your way. Love and hugs,
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: Marty
Lane <martyl@sunherald.infi.net>
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Subject: stori_64
I've just met kookaid, who said she is the sister of
the deceased, just 3 years ago. I just
came in on the conversation. She
shared with me, a little of her grief, and I visited
the website. I have never had a real
family, and I have been through many, many
things. But my heart goes out to
your family and I will keep you all in my prayers,
for there's no telling someone in such a
situation, anything you tell someone
else in theirs. But I can say,
'God Bless You all' through
everything. I know He will not
leave, nor forsake you. And I love
each and every one of you.
In sincerity and truth, Gina Lane
~ stori_64@yahoo.com
Dear Gina; Thank you for your
compassion, love and prayers. I
hope that you will one day have your own family and
find the fulfillment and joy of that
blessing. It has been four
years since Eric was killed. He
lives in spirit and in me and is continuing to bless
others with his unique and gifted talent and skills
at writing and at being the wonderful spirit
touching others with the immortal creativity he left
us. Thank you for
writing, Love and hugs,
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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Subject:
Homepage
Nina, Very rarely if ever, do I
leave a homepage with tears in my
eyes..... ~ Very
rarely do I sign guestbooks, but this time I had
to. You see, I need to tell
you, that your tribute to your son, is a tribute to
all sons and daughters, mother and
fathers.. Your love, your
heartfelt pain... I feel them all.....I sorrow
for the loss of Eric, I sorrow for a mother
without her child... ~ I
think that you are doing a great service, for
yourself and for others....
~ Wonderful Page.
~ My prayers with you,
Bobbie
http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Lofts/7508
Dear Bobbie; Thank you so VERY
much for your soulful and compassionate
message. It was especially well timed
and beautifully written from your heart to
mine. I think it a beautiful thing
evolving within the cyber-media/world - when two
souls can meet and know each other without any
earthly meeting or limitation... We have
met and given to each other a caring in
sharing. You have blessed me
tonight. ~ Thank you also,
for including me in your prayers.
~ Being that my middle name is Roberta -
I grew up with the "nickname" of ~Bobbi...
*s* It stuck for half of my life,
but then, when I moved from Maryland to Virginia - I
didn't tell anyone I was called Bobbi, for I'd
always loved my name, Nina - and it was quite
natural for everyone to call me `Nina' and I loved
it! *rvbs* ~ March is the
most melancholy month for me! It
begins as early as February,
actually. Just weeks from
graduation and the thrill of learning that
Eric was the recipient of the highest honor and the
AWARDS (given to graduating class) for both
of his `majors' - the MINNICK award for religion and
Philosophy, and the ENGLISH award (his foremost love
of all).... the anticipated family weekend which was
long planned for us to visit all of his favorite
places `around town and college' together... the
special dinner banquet for the graduating class and
their families... (with the awards being officially
given). It was, without a doubt -
the most anticipatory time of my life (his too, I
believe)... It was the culmination of
dreams, diligent work, dedication, sacrifice and
goals achieved. It was the
threshold of a life full of promise and so much to
give and do and be.... As it turned out, God had a
greater graduation in mind for Eric, one we have
come to think of as Erics' "eternal life
birthday". Amen, then, Amen.
~
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: richard_wolpoe@ibi.com
Subject: For what it's worth (fwiw)
Dear Nina, ~ I sense Eric's
spirit as very alive and well - through you
somehow. From your web-site, it FEELS as
if Eric is still around us in spirit and a very big
influence upon you and those who contact
you. It feels more than a memory,
it feels like a living "influence" and
inspiration. ~
Dear Rich; That is one of the
most beautiful things anyone could say to
me! I feel that too, and others have
said it in other ways - but your words transferred
my exact feelings and in Erics' own words from
"THIS DAY" - "transcends the scope of
time". Thank you very much for sharing
your feeling and thoughts of us!
Love, from your Gypsy, (Nina)
My coach Nanice is working on opening up my
heart. I cannot help but sense the
vibes. Your LOVE for Eric is amazing but
it is not just the sentimental love of mourning the
loss of the Eric, rather, you have a living viable
relationship, there is a dynamic spirit that makes
this fresh and alive. It's
not only transcending time, it's transcending
flesh. It's not like I know the Eric of 5
years ago, THAT would be going back into
time. Rather, it feels like Eric
IS alive and well in spirit, only his body is
missing. You are, of course,
communicating his poetic works on the material
plane, but his spirit emanates out, I can sense
it. You are not in love with
Eric's memory alone, you are in contact with the
real spirit of Eric, and you are sharing this with
others... That is SO beautiful, I
cannot describe it. Eric's spirit
and soul is still working in THIS world
through you and your love for him!
~ Love, Rich
From: richard_wolpoe@ibi.com
Dear Nina, May I share some
of your points about God and spirituality with
friends? ~
Regards, Rich
Absolutely! From God to me and me to
you and you to anyone you choose.... I am both
honored and blessed in your wanting to!
From your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From: shirleybeans@webtv.net
Subject: memorial site
Thanks to net4tv I have just visited your
site. It is a wonderful memorial.
It speaks so of love. May God
bless you now and forever.
Hello Shirley; Thank you for visiting
and sharing your thoughts/feelings
afterward with me.
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: ScubieDew@aol.com
Subject: Your Web Page
My sincerest sympathy goes out to you on the
loss of your son Eric and you
sweet little `girl' Buffy. You
have suffered so, and my heart and my prayers
are with you. It is so hard losing a loved one, be
it human or animal. I have never
lost a child, so that part I have been spared, but I
know how badly you must hurt, but I have lost fur
children and I can tell you that it is
heartwrenching. I lost my Casey Bear, a
cinnimon Chow Chow when he was 2 years old, due to a
dog fight. That was 5 years ago and I
still grieve for him so very deeply. I
have a 10 year old Chow that I fear in the near
future will be joining her brother Casey Bear at
Rainbow Bridge. I know that it will be
horrendously painful for me because I have had her
ever since she was 10 weeks old and we have a bond
so strong that we can communicate with each
other telepathically. We can carry on a
whole conversation that way. I keep her with me most
of the time now, because she has communicated to me
that her time here on earth is drawing to a close,
and I want her with me as long as I can possible
keep her. Her name is Brandi Bear. I
will find it hard to go on when she leaves
me. The story of your Beloved
Buffy brought tears to my eyes, but she was so
lucky to have had you for a Mommy. She was your
angel and you were hers. ~ I
am a pet loss grief counselor for Rainbows
Bridge.com and I deal with the pain of others
every day and my heart breaks for them. Please visit
us in the pet loss chatroom at www.rainbowsbridge.com
It is a wonderful, healing place and I have met some
very wonderful, caring, understanding friends
there. May God Bless you and may He hold
your precious babies, Eric and Buffy in His
loving arms until the day your work on earth is
through and you are called to the Rainbow Bridge to
cross the Bridge together into Heaven never to be
parted again.
Rainbow Hugs, Dot (Casey Bear's & April's Mommy)
Dear Dot; Thank you for writing and
for sharing. I do know what you mean about
telepathic communication with pets (and also with
humans whose minds are not too cluttered or
self-involved to "receive") such
communications and intimacy. Our little ChiCho,
(Chihuahua) is not only telepathic - but is the most
intelligent fur-child I have ever had, in that, he
understandings ordinary conversations and words
more than any other I have ever seen - (except for
my earlier observation of Timmy and Lassie
<television shows>, which, at that time, I
believed 100%) *giggle* There was such a sweet thing
I read somewhere (Chicken soup for the soul, I
think) about a child who was listening to his
parents and veterinarian talking and it was
said that it was such a shame that our pets
have such short lives rather than remaining our
lifespan... and the little boy said that he thought
that he knew why... "Because God created us
here on earth so that we could learn to love and
pets learn better and faster than us, and that's why
they get to go to heaven sooner than people!"
~As scripture says, "And a little child shall
lead them". *S* ~ I hope that your
beloved Chowchow will surprise you and be with
you a long, long while here in this realm
yet. Love, hugs and prayers,
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: LamaBean5@aol.com
I was very touched reading your story on your
beloved Buffy.
I cried as i read it because it reminded of my
beloved Cassie, who passed on to Rainbowsbridge a
year ago March 12. It broke my heart when we lost
her and i think about her everyday. i cry every time
i think of her or see her picture. She is also on
Rainbowsbridge, if you get a chance visit her site.
It is awful to lose our babies, for they are our
children. Thinking of you in your time
of sadness......Donna
Subject: Buffy and Cassie
Dear Donna: In April I received a
message from you and do not see if I wrote
back to you. You were responding to my sharing
about the last days with my dog, Buffy.
You shared with me about losing your Cassie also.
Thank you for writing. If you did get a reply -
please let me know.. and if not - please accept my
heartfelt apology and please forgive me.
I usually answer my e-mail right away. I had my
knees both replaced in January and have had
difficulty in spending much time at the computer and
working on the pages. Now, after a few months in
pool therapy, I'm doing much better and am just now
really catching up a bit. If I did not respond when
you wrote to me - please accept my deepest apology
and please know that I care about each and every
e-mail friend and fellow soul sharing
with me. ~ I hope that you are
doing well and have been adjusting to your loss. I
also hope that you have found comfort and strength
in all the resources and other
souls who have lost loved ones...
Love and hugs, Yours because I'm
His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
From:
LamaBean5@aol.com
Subject: Re: Buffy and Cassie
Hi Nina, In response to your
letter, No, I never got an answer from
you. This is the first time I've heard from
you. I was very glad to hear from
you. I just figured at the time I wrote that
you were too upset over losing your fur-baby.
I have met a lot of very nice people through Rainbow
Bridge and we have become very good
cyber-friends. It is so nice to know that
others care about you and their pets. I
hopeyou are doing well since your knee
surgery. My brother had knee replacement
surgery 2 years ago and he is doing
great. Thanks again for taking time to
write me. Please keep in touch and let
me know how you are doing. Luv,
Donna
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From:
"Carol DeAngelo" <whisper@penn.com>
Subject: Guest book
Losing one we love puts a emptiness in our heart
that remains there until once more we can be
reunited with them. Losing a parent we lose the
Past, losing a Spouse we lose the Present, but
losing a child we lose the Future. God
Bless you my dear. May the Angels send you soft
words of love each day.
Sincerely, Carol
My Personal Site ~ http://www.geocities.com/softlywhisper.geo
Memorial for Lori, Dean and Angie ~ http://www.geocities.com/softwhisper.geo
Dear Carol; I enjoyed your touching
site. We just celebrated Erics' forth Eternal
life birthday (April first). You probably already
know how much it helps to share our departed
beloveds. When I began in 1996, it was more of a
desire to continue to give to the world,
Erics' writings and spirit which live on and travel
around the world into hearts and minds near and far.
Every writer has that desire to be read and to make
a difference, with words, in the lives of others.
Although Eric did not live to see it happen, it is a
timeless and endless gift which continues to help me
with the shortness of his time to use his remarkable
talent and share my
life until its' end. Thank you for sharing your
beloved with us here. Thank you for the e-mail and
your compassionate words and link to your site which
is lovely. ALthough we miss our dear children, we
know that they are in a far, far better place
awaiting our reunion. Love and hugs, Carol. From ~me
Yours because I'm His, ~ Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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Subject: A
request...
From: "stani ferraiolo" <sferraiolo@hotmail.com>
Hello Nina, ~ My name is
Stani and I was just surfing the web a little when I
came across to a wonderful prayer you wrote titled 'Where
are You Lord?' ~ I
like this text so much, that I was wondering if I
could possible make a song of it?
I really love the stuff you write and admire
your writing abilities a lot! I hope
hearing something from you soon!
~ Greetings, Stani
Dear Stani; Thank you for
your appreciation of my writings. The prayer I wrote
in 1993 is also a favorite of my
writings. It was written at the
lowest time of my life and it came from my
soul. ~ When you request making it
into a song... do you mean just for yourself? Or to
be performed? Could you tell me a little more about
what you have in mind? Would also like to know a
little about you. Do you sing? Write music? Perform
for churches or something like that? I
consider the request an honor, thank you. Will look
forward to your response.
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
Subject: To answer some of
your questions...
Dear Nina, I was pleasantly suprised to
see you mailed back so quickly. YES, I
would like to write a song with those lyrics to be
performed. I play in a band in Belgium: I usually
sing, write the lyrics and music. I also love
playing the piano, keyboard and bass guitar. Our
band is called '777'( it's got a kind of funny
history to it ...'cause we let the younger sister of
our guitar and bass player (brothers) choose the
name. And we accepted it...) 7 refers, as you will
know, to the Godly number of perfection. Since we
call ourselves Gods' disciples we are not perfect,
but strive to be. We hope with the band
to record our first album in December. And if I can
manage, put YOUR poem on it as well as a song of
course! The words are so true, and
I felt your emotion through your words... Just
excellent! ~ So, I presume you live
in the US, right? Where at? Now, I am
doing a one semester intern ship at SEMO, in
Missouri. I tutor French and German, and try
to improve my English... I will leave the US in
exaclty 2 weeks. Although I had a great
time here, I look forward to go back to my family
and friends! I hope you tell something about
yourself as well... ~
Friendly greetings from Stani
Dear Stani; Nice to hear more
about you. *S* There is an online bio about
me.... here; http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/Mine/about-me.htm
~ If you do use my prayer, please keep my name
with it, and if it is used on an album, please
publish the link to my memorial site established to
publish the works and tributes to my beloved
son, Eric Lee Baker (who has gone ahead of me
home to our Father and eternal
life). ~ Will you be online
when you go home? If so, perhaps we will
keep in touch through my personal mailbox?
Love and hugs, Yours because I'm His,
Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
Tamgwill@cs.com
Hi Nina, I came across your web
page tribute to your son Eric today when I was
looking for a poem to read at a memorial
service. It's probably been a while
since you did this page, but I just wanted to let
you know that I was really touched.
~ Tammy
Dear Tammy;
Thank you for writing to me. I began the page in
1996, but it
is an ongoing commitment that will likely never be
really finished. I hope that you have a nice
memorial service and special day.
Love, Yours because I'm His,
Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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From:
"Maria McCallum" <leemaria@xcelco.on.ca>
Subject: Re: Website.
Dear Nina, As I sit here
reading your pages, tears are rolling down my
face. You see, you and I have a common
heartache. We both lost a
son. We lost our youngest son Brian at
age 36.Brian was diagnosed with cancer 1 year before
he died. We watched him suffer and get
worse daily and finally watched him leave us
forever. My dear Nina ,it has been 2 years since
that day,but he will always be in my heart. I wonder
if it ever will get easier. The
pain never seems to go away. So Nina, I
know what you are going through and the pain you
must have felt and still feel. My heart is with you
and so are my prayers. I think if it was not for my
faith in God, I would not have been able to pull
through. I have bookmarked your site, because
I could not finish all of them right
how. I think you will understand
why! I will be back.
God bless you Nina. ~
Maria. (aka Bozwald)
http://www.xcelco.on.ca/~leemaria/WebPages
Dear
Maria; ---->
I wonder if it ever will get easier ^As
I'm sure you already know after 2 years, life
does get into a new rhythm, never again to be what
it was "before". After four+ years, I find
that every single reference or relativity is divided
by April 1, 1996... into "before and
after".... Actually... "easier" is a
difficult concept to recognize hidden between
the cracks in our world which will never again
be whole... And yet.... given the choice, we would
again choose the broken world to one in which the
beloved had never existed..... True? I
believe that our loved ones who move on ahead of us
and no longer share the same realm, go on living
within and as a part of us
forever. In that sense, we come to
cherish what we had/have more than grieve what we
have no longer with us otherwise. When this
happens, it becomes "easier" than those
first days (or years) when we are so sorely torn
apart. ~ I have been blessed
to communicate with so many who suffer grief and
loss, via this cyber-realm which connects us from
near and far.... I have learned that there is good
and bad in every way that the loss comes into our
lives. Whether slowly, with foreknowledge of the
days growing relentlessly shorter, or suddenly with
no warning or preparation at
all. Ofttimes, people continue to
look across the fence into the "fields of
others" and think that the parting would
have been better or easier if it had happened some
other way. But the reality is that it would
not be better or worse if it had happened in any
other way than ours.... we must all look at the
reality and find the positives and negatives
therein. We can focus on their death or their
lives. ~ Sadly, there are
some who have more pain to bear when the death comes
in a horrible or violent manner and adds to the
memory of the experience, a horror of its' own to
bear.... For these people, only God can bring them
healing and reconcilement to their additional
tragedy... One day we will all see the greater
picture... the tapestry will be finished and we will
see the whole of it from the front rather than our
limited present view of the tangled threads behind
the cloth being woven now. ~ Thank
you for writing to me. I feel a bond and
thankfulness for each new heart/soul which reaches
out to touch and help me grow and heal. I pray that
you feel the same about sharing my experience
too. Write any time you may feel a need
or desire to share again. God has
blessed us to find and share and I thank Him for
that. ~ Love and warm embrace to
another mother who grieves ...
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: IKreisler@webtv.net
(Inge Kreisler)
Subject: Appreciation
Gypsy Nina (of the Misty Blue Mountains),
Today my heart feels soothed by your beautiful web
site, and I am truly thankful to you &
Eric. My name is Colleen and my
email address is ColleenMcC@webtv.net
. On Feb. 21st, 2000 my beautiful, bright 18yr young
son died in a car accident. Another boy died
also. Karl was driving and had 0.9
alcohol in his bloodstream supposedly from what he
drank the night before. I hate this ! In my heart I
don't believe he intended to drink and drive. I
expressed my position that he not drink both
verbally and in action too. Karl was responsible and
compassionate. I grew up in an alcoholic home and
married an alcoholic husband (Karl's dad,Peter)
Peter did get sober when Karl was 5 and we divorced
when Karl was 10. Peter and I had Karl tested for
alcoholism. He was getting good grades working
part time and excited about going to college to
study chemistry. Karl loved friends, music,
basketball, snowboarding and his little brother
Henry(16). Life sure changes when one's child dies!
I was angry most of my pregnancy with Henry, mostly
because I felt helpless about Peter's drinking and
trapped. I thank God for Henry. It has always been
my highest honor and privileged AND my joy to parent
the boys. Even on a shoestring budget and with Peter
not be just unsupportive but actually making life
pretty difficult much of the time. Two years ago he
took the boys and I through a custody battle. I am
sad that even though I tried so hard and so long
Karl died.I feel responsible. Like Henry said,
"Karl was just getting to the good part".
Henry also says the boys enjoyed there childhood
very much. He said, "Mom, I believe you were a
very good experience for Karl". He sure was and
still is for me. Mostly I wanted to share that
my highest goal is to be a living prayer.
Helping teens in trouble mattered to Karl. I am
committed to his legacy being about love. Your site
affirms this for me. A scholarship has been started
in his memory at the high school he was graduating
from. My brother and I want to start a Music
Festival in honor of Karl and Naro, the other boy
that died. The money will go to teens in trouble. I
know this was long and rambling. Thank you again for
your kind soul and sharing your love for your son
with me.
Take good care. in love, Colleen
Dear, dear
Colleen; Thank you for sharing
with me your love, loss and commitment to allow
something terrible to create something so beautiful
and spiritual for the world which Karl and Naro no
longer inhabit with us. They live on in your
feelings and in your actions memorializing them. We
are changed by the tragedy, and how wonderful it is
when that change is love and giving rather than a
retreat into despair which has no way to create a
legacy of their memory and their
fate. Each of us have such
different circumstances and responses to it all. I
am blessed to have had so many others share their
choices and feelings. What you have chosen to do is
wonderful, particularly since Karl has a younger
brother. Henry will be surrounded by the
memorials to his brother and the strength
and love which you are able to exhibit to
others and to allow Karl to make a difference in
other lives because he lived and because you love
him so beautifully. ~ I am blessed
by your reaching out to me. I don't know if you
found the guestbook and archives, but I hope that
you will visit them and read of others who share
their loss, grief and healing experiences. If you
didn't check them, here is the first of twenty
archives (working on #21 as current one) http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/guestbooks/arch-01.htm
I know that it must grieve you so much more that
there had to be the alcohol aspect of the deaths...
particularly since you suffered in childhood
and marriage, the devastation and pain of
alcoholisms' presence and consequences of loved ones
indulgence in it.... but you sound strong and
enduring through it all - and those very
circumstances which have brought you such terrible
grief, also helped to make you who and what you are
today. Please write any time you feel a
need to reach out mother to mother, child of God to
a sister or in any way that you need... I care and I
will be here for you. I embrace you with Gods' love
through both of us,
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
Thank you
Nina, You really are a
beautiful writer. A most lovely of soul's also. As
you know, It Is So Painful To Loose a
Son! I am truly amazed and humbled by
this experience. I do love Henry immensely, always
remembering his precious heart too is challenged
helps me have strength. Your gracious reaching out
to me Nina softens the pain. I thank God for you
today. I remember, and know, my
sons both belong to God. Me too. God Is and cares
for all of us. Your response to me supports this
truth. : )
Take good care. ~ Love, Colleen
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From: vikkis@shentel.net
Subject: Eric's Memory!
Dearest Nina! ~ I
have just spent hours going through your
Homepage! What can I say, Except,
Wow!!!!!! I have gone through the
pages one by one. I shared your tears as I
went from page after page, Feeling the intensity of
the death and re-birth of your Son! To bury a child
has got to be the most excruciating pain a Mother
has to deal with. I know you and Eric had such
an enormous bond! I remember your Son fromChurch and
he was always on a higher plane than others His
age..But I also knew, It was because of the Mother
he had! Eric was equally Blessed by You, Your
honesty, tenderness, Sensitivity, knowledge and most
of all Your wisdom! That we know comes from our
Father! I'm not sure how I feel right
now. I guess I can best describe it as
Lonely and sad.....Which, even tho it's been
awhile....Through your days of contentment and
happiness...there will always be that
void....emptiness and loneliness. With a Son like
Eric and all His depth and perceptions of the
world around Him, Has to change you profoundly.
Missing Him on a daily basis is probably a part of
your your existence! In closing. I would
like to say, I am glad I know you! and Eric
for a short and brief time! May Our God,
Who gives us that peace that passes all
understanding, Bless You and Your Family 100
fold! If you get the chance, Lets chat
or e-mail. My time is limited, with my Hair shop,
and working full time at Wal-Mart (10p-7a) I don't
have a lot of free time. Just know I am
thinking of You and lets keep in touch!
Your Friend and Sister in Christ!...........Vicky E.
Maggard.
Vikki's Hair Designs! 984-4449
Dear Vicki; Thank you
for visiting our cyber-home, and for writing and
sharing your feelings about me and about Eric.
*Rvbs* ~ You touched
my heart in its' deepest and most tender place and
soothed me with your love and compassion. I
appreciate that more than I could say in mere words
- I hope that you can feel it right this moment and
always, flowing from my soul to yours.
It seems so long between our meetings *IRL*,
life gets so busy with the ~tyranny of the urgents~
of each day and we live only five minutes apart from
each other! ! *s* TWO jobs? That
must be quite a drain on your energy and also on
home-making and inter-family
relationships! Do you like the graveyard
shift? Peach works those same hours at
Food Lion (night manager and
cashier). ~ Are you setting
up a website? If so, let me know. <snipped
personal>
Gee.... so much has been going on while I have been
laid-up since that accident and my
knees! But I would love to have
you come out and visit or we can just do e-mail
also, which is probably more convenient with
your working hours! . The nice thing a bout
e-mail is that you get to do the communicating when
you actually have the time. But you are always dear
to my heart dear one! I will write more next time
Brandi is 11 now and our favorite night is Friday
and it's time for us to get a game going....
*s* ~ Let me know how
things are. Have you visited the Spiritual pages on
my site? There is a prayer there called
"WHERE ARE YOU LORD?", somehow, I feel
strongly that you would like to read that...
Go here, http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/master.htm
Go look down through the links until you find the
link to click and go read that prayer... I have an
idea that you will be blessed.... I have had so many
people write to me about that one prayer (which I
wrote in 1993 in the midst of a whole summer of
being suicidal and hospitalized three times for that
affliction before I received the permanent cure of
the mending of my faith and trust.....)
Remember, Vicky, when life seems so difficult and
dark, no affliction ever comes upon us without a
gift/blessing for us as well. I love you, dear
sister. You are a cherished one in my heart and
life....
Bye for now ~~~~~~~~~waving~~~~~~~~~ Love, prayer
and hugs,
Yours because I'm His, Your gypsy,
(Nina)
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Subject: May
I be of some comfort?
From: "Danelle E
Lewis" <lewistec@frontiernet.net>
My Dear Friend &
Mother of Eric, If I may intrude
into your life for just a brief moment of
time. My name is Danelle Lewis and I too
have children in heaven. I am very touched by your
willingness to create this web site for all to
view. It took me 20 years to be able to
put into words that, even though they were late in
coming, may someday with God's grace be of comfort
to you. I'm am so very glad that Eric
was saved and baptized for I feel he must have
had a personal relationship with Christ and that, if
I may again be forward, You too may have this
relationship with the Savior. Please
take a short rest in the garden of God's love and
visit a web site that a friend of mine put together
and begged me to write my testimony for. If you
should know of anyone who might need to read my
testimony please share this web site with them. I'm
sure you have had many letters and If you'd like to
copy this address down and reply to some of the
email you get and send this address you have my
blessing to do so. I lost 2
children ages 1 1/2 and 2 1/2 and my testimony can
be seen at
http://www.geocities.com/journey_gardens/toosoon/iris.htm
. I wrote this under a pen name (at the request of a
very special friend) of Iris. The home page of this
site is http://www.geocities.com/journey_gardens/
Please fill free to give this address to anyone who
may need the comfort of God's love.
Living in the Word ~ Danelle
Lewis
Subject: Re: May I be of some comfort?
To: Danelle E Lewis <lewistec@frontiernet.net>
Dear Danelle; Thank you for writing to
me and sharing. I read your testimony and
wondered- what happened that took both of your
little ones at one time. Was it a farm accident? I
would like to know just what happened, if you don't
mind sharing that. I guess the most important
question in my mind, though, is - did they die
instantly and not have to suffer? Also, what were
the names of your precious son and daughter? I
am glad that you went on to have three more children
and with the special advantage/gift to have
Christian parents for them. After
reading your testimony, I happened to think that you
might not have seen the Spiritual sections of our
site and so am sending the following links which I
thought you might like to see.
http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/master.htm
http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/Spiritual/spirtual.htm
http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/Spiritual/prayer/prayer3.htm
http://www.user.shentel.net/nbaker/Spiritual/prayer/redeem.htm
I realize that your loss was long ago, and your
loving husband was probably the best source of your
healing.... but should you ever have need of more,
the archived testimonies of others who lost loved
ones, is a treasure of sharing, support and balm....
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
From: "Danelle E Lewis" <lewistec@frontiernet.net>
To: <nbaker@shentel.net>
Mrs. Baker. Thanks
for returning the gesture of sharing. I seldom go
into detail about my children but I spos I should
get use to it now that my testimony is out in the
world. (I had just written it the first of Oct.) It
took all those years to write it down. No, not that
I couldn't find the words, I think because God knew
that in some way I still felt sorry for
myself. I know God can't use me that way
and each time I began to write I seemed bitter at
the world. I didn't want to come across bitter - I
wanted God's love to show through. My
children contracted a virus that made their major
organs shut down. I know it sounds strange,
but many tests and lab procedures had been done, and
are still being done thanks to our wonderful
scientist that can freeze tissue. There
was another child in the family line who had died,
and though that is little comfort to people in that
time, it was said to have been a gene problem of
some sort. I still stay in contact with some of the
family, strange as it seems to a lot of people
that I could still talk with my ex-inlaws. God gets
us through these things! There was no sign of
pain.. no sign of hurting.. and they both died after
being sick together with a very bad virus.. the
other child that died had died about 5 months
earlier. As you can imagine I just don't
talk much about it and the updates are enough to
make the crying last for weeks. God has
taken most of the pain from me as I watch my
children grow, plan for college and their
lives. There doesn't seem to be a problem with
my genes, nor that of my husband now, but having
been part of a family who have a problem with their
genes can surely make one stop and
think..."what does God have in store for me
around the next corner". I don't worry any
more, I don't question God any more, I don't even
look for the clouds for Him to return....I am
listening for the trumpet call and thats when I will
see my Lord and I'll know why these things
happened. ~
Have a wonderful day in the Lord.
Danelle (a.k.a. Iris )
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From:
"anil bajpai" <anil_bajpai@vsnl.com>
Subject: u made me cry
u made me cry again & again & again
~ thanks? love? ?
may once i am able to control myself ~
anil
Dear
Anil; Sharing and empathizing with
another souls' experiences and pain, is an act of
love from a loving person. Thank you for being that
loving and sharing with me. I hope that with the
tears you also drew something of strength, faith,
hope and personal growth.
Warm hug, and love from my heart, Yours
because I'm His, your gypsy, Nina
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"Teri
K." <siloamsally@cnsinternet.com>
Subject: registering in the guest book
My Dearest Gypsy, I am struck with a
profound sense of love and respect from one Mother
to another. I too have three boys
whom I love dearly. I have had a wild life and
started my family at 14 years of age. now I am 39
and my boys are 21, 16 and 12. I made it through the
tough times with being a single Mother at a very
young age, and I could not possibly imagine the pain
you must feel from the loss of your son
Eric. I don't know if I could deal
with the loss of a child and I pray I never have
too, but I would like to express my deepest sympathy
to you and your family. Eric must be
very honored to have such a graceful
Mother. I have never seen such a
beautiful web site in my life and I will be telling
many about this wonderful web site Memorial to Eric
and the way your family has found a way to express
your love and memories for Eric. ~ May
God Bless You All and keep you safe .
Sincerely, Teri Ann Kasischke
Iowa Falls, Iowa
Hello, dear Teri Ann: It's
amazing how few visitors write... (relative to the
number who visit the site... some, repeatedly!) I
think it at least partially due to the sad nature of
the memorial pages of the site, and the difficulty
that most have in finding words to share emotions so
strong. Memorializing my dear Eric was
the originating inspiration which began the whole
idea of even putting up a web-presence. He had
many friends and school-mates here in
Shenandoah and then the 4 years at Ferrum... It
allowed them to visit Eric and to have their
own copies of his work if they wished, by copying
directly from the site. It was really all he ever
aspired-to in life - to have others read his words
and touch people. He knew he would be working at a
job, at least at first (I think he would have been
able to earn a fine living with his writing in
whatever aspect he enjoyed most).... but he
most loved writing for the sake of expression and
perspective shared with others. I feel the same way
about my own writing. I suppose you already
read the page where I already explained all this and
about the auto-biography which I first read after he
was killed, wherein he expressed that dream of
being read... Now - he certainly IS read, all around
the world. *S* ~ I'm sure that most all
parents feel that dread and fear of surviving their
children... None of us ever think we could bear
that. It burns in our hearts when one of
our children falls ill and we are up checking on
them all through the night. And if one were to
dwell on the death... we would overlook the joy of
the LIFE we shared. Who would sacrifice
one moment with our children to escape the terrible
pain of losing them? It is good to think
on all the good we had rather than the experiences
we never did get to share beyond those days allotted
to them. A daughter-in-law,
grand-children (if he'd had any) who might have been
as wonderful as he was... all are taken away with
him.... But, there are many things of comfort in the
terrible way he was taken... Terrible for us left
behind, but absolutely blessed in the instant and
merciful end which came in a time too short to even
utter a word or suffer a
moment! Some people never,
ever have the closeness and appreciation of each
other that we did.... And I cherish it all. It is a
cozy blanket of comfort that I wrap around myself
daily. ~ Thank you for your loving
care to write to me and express your warmth, love
and appreciation for your visit to our cyber-home.
*S* I hope that you will return and find all the
other goodies which grew out of the original
memorial pages... I feel the gentle, caring spirit
within you, embracing me, mother to mother, from
afar. Thank you for that, dear Teri.
Love, hugs and shalom, ~ Yours because I'm
His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)
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Subject:
From: David Warren <dsw35@bellsouth.net>
You have a wonderful website and I appreciate you
sharing it with others like me. I'm sure I will be
back to visit many times. Thanks much. David
Dear David; Thank you for letting me know you
enjoyed your visit. *S* ~ I
appreciate hearing from visitors who find their way
to the Misty Mountain cyber-site. Have a
blessed Sunday , (and everyday),
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From: IGTRANSUE@webtv.net
Irene Transue)
Subject: Pansies
The pansies and poetry are very beautiful and
inspiring.
Hello Irene, Thank you for sharing your
appreciation with me.
Yours because I'm His, ~ Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
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From:
Diannse@cs.com
Subject: (no subject)
Dear Nina, My son Matthew went
home to be with the Lord on November,19,2000 after a
21 month battle with a brain tumor. My husband
also, went home to be with the Lord 6 mo prior, I am
thanking the Lord for his constant care, and would
like to see how you are doing. ~ A
friend in Texas/ PS my brother lives fairly close to
Roanoke, Va. so the picture reminds me
of how pretty it is. ~ Diann
Seals
Dear Diann: Thank you for
writing, sharing, and for your inquiry as to how I
am. We are blessed to be secure and even have
a new baby in the family, we are 5 generations this
year, and I became a great grandmother for the
first time. You didn't mention other
family. I hope that you have friends and family to
support and comfort you in this time. Having lost
family to Cancer, I know that the parting can be
mixed with strong, diverse feelings of the pain of
loss and the gratitude for the merciful ending of
suffering. Still... Thanksgiving
and Christmas are the two most traditional times of
gathering and the joys of giving and
receiving. I guess that your
Thanksgiving day must have been the day after
your sons' burial? How sad for you
and those who also loved and lost him from
their present lives. This is the our 5th
without Eric, and I can see that there will
always be an invisible empty chair at our family
holiday gatherings. For you, though,
this is the first without TWO of your
beloveds! How I ache for and with you. I
am glad that you are reaching out to the others in
the world who share themselves online and with
websites for you to visit. I still feel
that need to reach out and see how others are
surviving.... It comforts me to have them in view,
and also comforts me to have others behind me on
this journey `after'. It seems
that most of us tend to see our lives landmarked as
before and after the loss of a loved one/ones.
~ If there is anything I can do... or
even if you just feel like sharing more... please
write again. I am here, I care deeply, and I feel
Gods' love for you in my heart.
Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy,
(Nina)
From: Diannse@cs.com
Dear Nina, Bless you for your
kind words through the edification of the spirit. I
know how you feel at this time of the
year. I know Eric was special to you and
your family, and also, there is just something about
a mom and her son. Matthew was my friend, and
he opened the spiritual side that he saw, and I am
sure the Lord knew we both needed that
comfort. ~ Mark and Matthew
were fraternal twins. Mark and Matt were
9 minutes apart. I think Mark is
doing fair although I am not sure he has let
everything out as most men do not.
Matt's older brother victor is pretty much the
same. Mark is a policeman so they have
to be in control at all times. ~ I
am sure you have your hands full with your
grandchild and other multi tasks. May
the lord supply all your needs through this time and
to come.
Your friend in Texas ~ Diann
My Dear Diann... I tried to respond to
you, but the e-mail address above will
not go through for me. I hope that you will
see this message some day and see the response I did
try to send, which appears here.....
Dear Diann: Nice to hear from you again and
learn more of your journey. Yes, as you
observed, we are just months apart in age. I'm also
raising one of my 8 grandchildren, Miss Brandi
(s). I am also now a great-grandma
to "Hallie" who is going to have her first
Christmas this year. With my mother alive, we
are now five generations. *s* It
must be very difficult for Mark to have a twin who
died. Are they identical or fraternal twins? If identical,
I imagine that there must be an underlying,
lingering anxiety associated with the manner
of Matthews' death. It must also have
been very difficult to lose your husband/father at
such a difficult time (any time would be hard, but
while in the midst of Matthews' battle was
undoubtedly heartbreaking for all of you!).
Surely, there is a glad rejoicing/reunion between
father and son now. I am quite blessed to know that
you are a strong Christian and have His strength to
lean upon and the certain realization that He is
with us always - even unto the end. No other
arms could hold, comfort and strengthen me like our
Abbas'. ~ I hope that you will
find solace and peace in this celebration time of
year. The first of every holiday, is like a mountain
to climb and rise above. There is that aching
emptiness even in the midst of friends and family...
a loneliness that no others will ever fill.~ Thank
you for writing again. Even though it is the 5th
Christmas without Eric, I am filled with fresh
aching at all of our family gatherings and each of
the holidays without him.
Love and hugs, yours because I'm
His, Nina
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