From: "Debbie"
Nina, Your web site is fantastic.... it really touched me... I lost my husband unexpectedly also, I feel your pain... I know how hard the days are to get through. You will be in my prayers.        Debbie

Hello Debbie; Thank you for letting me know you visited our website. It is always a blessing to me to hear from visitors. You are in my prayers also, I'm sorry very about your loss.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: "Terri Onorato" "Portrait Of An Angel"
Subject: Your Web Site  ~  Hello, I was directed to your *extraordinary* website by a friend of mine, Mattie, who received your Misty Blue Mountain Award.   The reason she gave me your URL is because my home page, "Portrait Of An Angel" is dedicated to my angel at Rainbow Bridge...Misty Blue. In February of last year we lost our cocker spaniel Luci and she has a dedication page as well. I wanted to write you for two reasons - first to tell you how very much your website has touched me. Secondly I would like to give to you our Gift Of Appreciation for Buffy and Eric's pages. With your permission I will include a link back to their sites on our Gift Of Appreciation page. If you choose to display our Gift Of Appreciation, our link is - I'll await your permission before adding a link to Eric and Buffy's pages.
God bless. Peace, Terri ~ "In Memory Of Luci"

??? Don't have this reply (mine) - looking for it! (the laptop I was using to do this while confined - crashed and is not ~up yet. Don't know if the message will still be there when I get it back..... sorry, Terri. Maybe if you spot this and have a copy of the first e-mail I sent to you (before the subsequent personal exchanges, you might send me a copy? ~ Yours because I'm His, Nina

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Subject: HI
I too lost someone very special and miss them very much. Great love brings great loss, but to have had my dear, sweet Cody for as long as I did, the love makes the pain worth it. Be strong. Tom

Subject: Re: HI
Dear Tom; Thank you for writing and sharing with me both your loss and mine. I appreciate and feel blessed by every communication and meeting through our site and its' offerings. U B strong 2!
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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I'm Walt Jr , I would like to request a prayer for my dad and our case. his name is Walt Sr. Great injustice has been done, but I believe God knows how to answer prayer. Please pray for us, I know in prayer and many who pray, there is Power. - Thank you and God Bless, Walt Jr.

Subject: Re: Please pray
Walt Jr, I know that God knows what the needs are in your situation and He will be with you and use all things for good! All praise and thanks be to Him! Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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I found your website yesterday and have shared it with my family. It is beautiful and I know your son would be proud. Best wishes.

Thank you so much for taking time to write to me and share your thoughts/feelings about our site. *smiling*
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: lord_novacain
Subject: Thanx
Hey, I know I'm not American, but I am doing a paper on the American Dream, and your site was the only one I've ever found to have stated the American Dream. Thank you very much! ~ Novacain

Subject: Re: Thanx
Hello Novacain; Thank you for appreciating Erics' work.
He loved to write and he loved to help people also - he would have been very pleased to hear your words. On his behalf, I thank you for letting us know that his words live on and you appreciate them. I don't know what country you are in, but I hope that you may return sometime and read more of his work?
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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I have not been here for a few months well probably closer to a year but I am glad to be back at your website. I could not sign the guestbook it was a non working link. Anyway I wanted to let you know that I hurt for you and your loss of your son Eric, I will pray that this tribute you have created for him will help those who have suffered as you have and to also find your courage to move on and share your strenth here. As I had shared the beauty of your pages then with another internet group of friends, I had also this morning without reading all the beautiful new things that are here, well I posted to the members of my freindship group. I have loved the award you gave to me and I would love for you to accept my award for excellence not just in webpage design but for your caring spirit and heart in wanting to make the world a little brighter with such beauty and love. God bless you always Nina, love and cyberhugs my friend! Audree

Hello Audree; I always love hearing from friends who return, and even more so when they are bringing gifts! *giggle* I hand you so very much for your wonderful "strokes", I am purring contentedly now.... can you hear me? *RVBG!* I do appreciate the appreciation and communication from you after so long! Glad that you returned to find more pages. I posted the award, thank you! I also visited your http: and you have also grown! *S* I love the graphics and music on the first page... Though I didn't read all the pages - I will be returning in the next few days and will sign the guestbook too. Speaking of guestbooks - <snip> . We are up to 12 archived "books" now! Those who are in the guestbook are so precious to me and to others who have found inspiration and comfort therein! If you have not visited and checked out the archives (numbered on bottom)... you might like to do that the next time you visit.
Here is hug! (((((((Audree))))))) and Thanks again!
Yours because I'm His, Nina

From: u62002328
Subject: thanks 
Hi Nina : I can understand Your choice of (was it Tom Jones who sing it?) Green Green Grass of Home when I see the photo on Your index page of Shenadoah Valley, its beautifully. Im a Swede and my homepage is about me, my UN-duty in Cyprus, the page Good in Life is about friends, dart, picture of our cats, Scotland and bagpipes. I must say You have a page so I must take a time for reflection. How lucky Im to have a home, a work to go to, a family and friends to share my life with God bless you Nina, Chers Erik

Hello Erik; (a very special name for me....)
Thank you for signing guestbook and for your website address which I visited. The recipes would have interested me, I love to cook! It seems to me that there is software to do translations for us as we surf - I just haven't run into a need for it until I wanted to see your cookbook! *S* Green Green grass of home is an old classic from before my time. I'm not particularly a Tom Jones fan, (though I did love to hear Englebert Humperdink, and before him - Johnny Mathis! *S* Will have to get to your site again, for the guestbook wasn't working for me to sign up.
Take care and be well, Erik, Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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My daughter and I love Pansies because my great grandmother loved them to. My great grandmother has passed on. My daughter who is seven years old didn't get to know her that well. the little time they did have with one another made a big impression on my daughter. My husband is in the military so we didn't get to see her much before she passed away. When we went home for a visit after she passed away my mother, my daughter and I went to her grave and planted pansies because they were her favorite flower. She has been gone for two years now and my daughter still remembers her and the fact that she loved pansies. So now her and I collect everything we see with pansies. When we got our computer a few weeks ago I put in a search for anything pertaining to pansies and I came across your letter and I really enjoyed it. It will stay in my favorites file . Thank You for sharing it with us.
Sharon Wright and her daughter Bethany

Subject: Pansies
Hello Sharon; Thank you so much for letting me know about your visit and sharing your love of pansies (which we have in common). I noticed your email address with 5rights... that is cute! I hope you will visit again. It is a wonderful age we live in with the cyber-highway to everywhere and the ability to have friends and experiences all over the world!
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: An Angel To Watch Over you
Dear GYPSY, We had a brief correspondence, back in january in relation to your website which you said is in remembranc of your son. Happy Valentines day Ms. Nina, Sincerely Yours ~ IFFY-MAYBE

Subject: Re: An Angel To Watch Over you
Hello `Iffy?' : Thank you for thinking of me. That was very sweet of you. I hope that yours was sweet and filled with the love which the holiday commemorates. Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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To: shoes ~ Subject: Re Awards
Hi , I hope I am doing this the right way, I would like to invite you to my site to read my poetry and articles in the hope that I may be eligable for them Eric Lee Baker award for Literature and Poetry Excellence. Of course if your feeling generous the Blue Mountains award looks very tempting also. *s* My site is called Jazmine's Paradise and the url is: Thank you I hope you enjoy my page as much as I have enjoyed yours. I will be bookmarking and coming back your topic is one I am very interested in.
Thanks again, Jazmine.

Subject: Re: Re Awards
Hello Jazmine; I am so glad that you send the award request. I rarely give either of the awards I made, upon request. I don't solicit requests nor usually write and ask others for theirs to be given to me.... I prefer that they be given and received
entirely at will. (hint *giggle*) I do usually check out URLS which I am invited to. Yours, I enjoyed v-e-r-y much! You have a unique and powerful talent in writing to bring the reader into the work and experience it. You have done a great job! It is the soul of a work which becomes a memorable part of us after reading works.
Entry in your guestbook
Hello Jasmine; How glad I am that you found me and invited me to your cyber-home. How DID we come to your attention? I always find it most interesting to know about the creator of a site! *S* For a mere 21 years, you write with great depth of understanding and soul. I feel certain that you will touch, comfort and help many souls to heal... You have chosen a very appropriate career! <sp - there is a typo in at this word in my entry to your guestbook! *teeheehee*- no spell-checker there!) So keep up your great work. I wondered, when you said that the topic of my writing was of interest to you.... After reading all of your site, I am assuming that you refer to the grief writings and poetry. We also have suicide poetry and links, humor, infidelity, abuse, spiritual, journal of a 9 year old and myself - there is such a wide variety of other writings.... Since there are literally hundreds of pages, it will likely be some time before you discover it all! Here is an easy overview of most of the entire site at a glance - MASTER INDEX <From here you can scan and link to the entire site and contents in a simpler/easier form> Thank you for finding me. I am sending you both awards in e-mail later today. I will be proud to have you display them and link to us, for your work is so very soulful and will touch the lives of others in an unforgettable way! I have bookmarked your site so that I remember to return and see new works. Don't ever get "bored brainless".... you are too talented to stop, E-V-E-R!   ~   I am sending both awards, (in separate e-mail) you certainly deserve them and I will be glad to be linked to/from you.
Love and hugs, Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

HI NINA, I am totally off the planet at the moment. Thank you so very, very much for those beautiful awards and especially the one you did in memory of Eric. I will cherish both for many reasons, not the least of which they came with such a glowing report of my writing. Coming from one so talented it is a great honor to be so complimented. Thank you for making me feel so good. I suffer from CFIDS and some days are worse than others, today was one of those days,   now, however, I am on top of the clouds. Many people comment about my writing but none in such flattering terms. <snip>As for applying for awards Nina, I am not patient, I waited a long time and no one thought to award me for my efforts, and I know I have a good web site, so I thought if I brought it to the attention of others they may just like what I have been doing and award me for it. And this has been the case. Your Eric must have been a very special man. I am so sorry you lost him, such a beautiful gesture to have an award in his memory. I will certainly link it back to his url and the other to yours. Once again, thank you very much Nina, Guess this is the longest thank you received by anyone. hehe. Fond Regards, ~ Jazmine.

Hi Nina,
<snip> Eric's story, it was very moving. I went back today and read more. It is so beautifully written, from a soul in the worst pain one can imagine.I admire you so much for finding the positive with the negative bearing down on you like a thousand horsemen wielding barbs and sabres to tear you apart at every instant. I have seen this torture on my Aunt's face and I want to run from the sight of such abject misery. The scattering of the ashes and the freeing of the 22 balloons was a beautiful send off. I , coincidently, have requested a similar departure save for the balloons. Yes at the ripe old age of almost 21, I think of my mortality, mainly because I have been so ill. For some reason I have a very positive approach to death and dying though not so to sickness. That scares me much more so than dying. Though I still have so much living to do, it's not something I welcome, just something I am not afraid of. I wish my Aunt had access to the net, there is so much to bring comfort, if that is at all possible at this stage in her grief. I have been to so many web sites of people who have lost children. You all share a special bond, I imagine there is comfort to be derived from knowing one is not the only person to suffer such hell and torment. I go to web sites late in the night and early morning, I can't sleep at this time, my body clock is upside down, so I surf the net looking at web pages. That is how I stumlbled on yours, I just follow links. I read sad and happy stories and get ideas for my own page.The night I read yours I also read another where someone had lost their husband, hence the confusion with Eric, so sorry about that. I also love your poetry, I am in awe of it, I cannot write like that at all. I feel that when I do, only I will know what I am trying to say. Nina, I don't wish to seem trite, however, I have two awards, I would be honored if you would accept. I truly feel you have earned them. I have never been so engrossed in a story on a web site as I was with yours. It was like reading a good book, didn't want to put it down. You, too, have a way of holding one's interest from beginning to end. So glad our paths crossed, (hugs) Jazmine.

Subject: Re: Awards, This n That.   ~  Hello again, dear Jazmine; If you don't mind educating me, I would like to know what "CFIDS" Is??? I know that CF usually stands for Cystic Fibrosis - but am not sure what CFIDS is. I would be very interested to hear more about it please?. I will share with you an additional part of my story which I have not yet taken from my journal and added to the homepage (though I am planning to share it. Presently I am confined pretty much to my room after a knee injury and the unfortunate aftermath of the implant surgery and condition. It's a long story in itself, but for now I need to stay rather inactivated...} I use my laptop every day to write, communicate with friends and do the grief-support (also to play FREECELL which I adore)! But I have to do the page work at my BIG SONY in the dining-room. I was talking to my mother one day about a year after Erics' death and she said to me, "It's really strange, don't you think, that you always thought that you would die before you turned 23?" It was like a sudden plunge into icy cold water. Her words instantly had the effect of opening a long closed door... I had forgotten all about that - but it was always with me for all of my life - I don't know where I got the idea or conviction... it just seemed to be a part of my life, like breathing and eating.... There was a kind of absolute knowledge within me - that I would never live to be 23. I do remember that in my late teens and first few years of my twenties - I would have a moderate sense of foreboding around my birthday - wondering if one of them would be my last. When I actually turned 23, they all said that I was "safe now".. kind of teasing me about that long-held belief of mine. It never came to mind again - just vanished. Even when Eric was killed just three months before his 23rd birthday. When mother mentioned it - she thought I had already thought about that - but I hadn't! Not at all. Peach (my long-term house-mate -cousin), was sitting there too and immediately remembered too. Though it had been 30 years from my own third birthday - she remembered that I'd always thought that (she came to live with us when I was 19, and I'd referred to my "fate" many times). I could tell by the way she said it, my mother had been thinking about the phenomena from the time Eric was killed. It had not occurred to me. Once I turned 23, I left it behind. Her words of remembrance of that old conviction brought it back to me acutely! That IS quite an odd thing..... Well - thank you for the lovely awards! It was sweet of you, along with your appreciation of my writing. *RVBS!* Your work is so moving and profound. I am glad that you have put it up online to touch others... What have been your health problems? I also share, with you, the dread of health-failure, but not death. I look forward to death as a beginning of Eternity when we leave mortality behind. *S* I like the words of JOB when he says "until my change comes"... I feel a contentment in doing the most in today and not being too concerned with tomorrow. I hope to hear more from you, Jazmine. Writers, (especially poets) are a kind of soulmate to each other and their talent bonds them in a unique and powerful way.... don't you think? Thanks again for the awards, I cherish them!
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: Bonita Worthing
Subject: web sight
I just finished your story; so simular to one of a friend of mine. She lost her son, same situation 3 years ago. You have done alovel thing here. I would like to put a page with music as a tribute to Johnathan , tell me how please
God Bless you; Bonita

Dear Bonita; Thank you for writing. As for your request about how to put up a page? I use Front Page software to do mine. It takes a lot of time and effort to learn the basics - but the best way to do it is just to begin and to learn as you go.
Some browsers now have programs available also to just beginwith them and I've been told that it is fairly simplified nowwith them. I wish you the best,
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: Re: Wishing you the best!
To: Cheryl & Jason Desjarlais
I received mail from you with attachments. I don't remember hearing from you before, and I do not open attachments unless I know the sender or there is regular e-mail message explaining attachments at the time they are sent. I will keep your message in a folder for three days, hoping hear from you regarding it. Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

Subject: Hi this is Cheryl and Jason Desjarlais!
Sorry about that for I was just sending my info and the rest was just my fancey Stationary! I am sending you my Banner for my site, I was at yours and would like the opportunity to add you to mine! Unfortunately in order do to this I need a picture from you for that is how we link from our site to yours! Please feel free to take a look at my site and decide if you would like to be there! We are also in the process of finding links for our pet pages that are coming soon! I hope you enjoy your stay and please feel free to sign my guestbook! My site address is . Hope you are having a wonderful day. Hope to talk with you soon
Kisses and hugs, Cheryl and Jason & Kids

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From: "White Helmet Pro Tropical Oasis Product" Subject: Nice job!!!!!!
Cool website!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Good Work!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for the compliments! Glad you enjoyed it! *smiling*
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (Gloria Morgan)
Subject: touching!!!!!!!
Hi, I found you by mistake? No, i think the LORD led me here. I really like your link.I have put it in my favorites so I can return. Thank you;

Subject: Re: touching!!!!!!!
Thank you, Gloria, for sharing your feelings and appreciation with me. Praise our Lord! Yours because I'm His, your gypsy, (Nina)

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From: "Mike Christian"
Subject: Sign in
Nina, Just visited your site for the first time -- I love the music and scenery. Looking forward to exploring your site thoroughly when I have more time. I am a pastor in Newport News, VA (Grace Heritage Church -- a very small church, but growing in practical Christianity), and also work as an engineering analyst at Newport News Shipbuilding. I have a Thursday noon Bible study there that has a good group of people really hungry to know God's Word and its practical application. My wife's name is Dottie, and we have been involved in home schooling for over 20 years. By the end of this summer we will have 8 grandkids.
Thanks for your beautiful Web Site.
Love in Christ, ~ Mike

Hello dear Brother, Mike;
Nice to hear from an almost-neighbor. Thank you for sharing your presence and visit. If I am ever in your area on a Sunday, it would be nice to drop in. *S* Let me know if there is ever anything I can help with (particularly in grief support). I also have 8 grandchildren, the 7th one (Gods' number of perfection - *grinning*) is Brandi, who has her own section on our homepage. I have had her since she was 5 months old. She is nine now and was baptized just last summer! *S* She truly loves our Lord in a beautiful way. I am blessed in her. When Eric was killed, she spoke straight from God as I held her and she said, "Mommy, DId the angels come and get Eric tonight?" Thank you again for writing to me. Hope to hear from you again.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Yuor webpage is a real blessing. I especially like the variety of things to see and the music.    ~    God Bless ~ Steve Miller

Thank you very much, Steve, for sharing your response and appreciation after visiting with us.   ~   Yours because I'm His, your Gypsy, (Nina)

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From: Ted,
Dear Friend... Thanks so much for the beautiful award that you presented to my beloved ANNAH... I apologize for taking this long to get back with you, but her beautiful awards are now in place on her web site and I want to invite you to take a look... your beautiful award means so much to me and my family... Thanks again...
To view your award, just click on her Awards link:
In appreciation for your beautiful gift, I am enclosing this special award for your awards page... Please link it back to us. Additionally, prior to Annah's death, Julie (Lacybunny2) spent countless hours assisting Annah in the implementation phase of her page and since continues to maintain the site in such a wondrous way. My family and I feeled so blessed... blessed by each of you... blessed by Julie... blessed by cherished memories... and above all, blessed by Love. Also, on her web site is a beautiful rose graphic that links to the National Bone Marrow Program. This graphic is meant to be a gift for everyone, including you...Please take this gift from her site and place it in a special place on your web site... Together, perhaps we can all make Annah's dream of a cure for Leukemia and all forms of cancer come true... Again, thank you for caring... May God bless you today and always! Ted

Hello: It is a real blessing to hear from you, Ted. I wrote several inquiries about YOUR condition when I saw the scrolling banner about you being in the hospital.... Now hearing from you is a great burden lifted. Re: the rose with the blood-donor request is already on my site and has been since the day I first met with Annahs' pages and received the award-request from Julie. I have been praying for you. Nice to meet you at last and know that you are doing okay. You continue in my thoughts and prayers. Your Annah was a very special spirit and you were certainly blessed in each other in the time you had with her. I too am in mourning. I don't know if you have visited my site or know my own story of loss of my soul-mate-son, Eric, April 1, 1996, just two weeks before he graduated from college. This is the third anniversary, and once again - I am in the midst of the "count-down" days. I thought only the first anniversary would be so acute - but here it is a third and it's just the same. I grieve. With my whole being! And yet- in the midst of even my darkest hours - I remember to be thankful for every precious moment that he was with me here in this realm! I'm sure that you find strength and solace in that perspective too. I hope that you will go and visit the pages. There are literally hundreds of pages and dozens of topics on our site, but it all began with Erics' death and you can learn more about the why and how of all that by going here to begin if you like, Oh, and about the rose - I have both the AWARD which was given to me and beside it - I put up as requested, Annahs' special rose and request.   The award from Annahs' page links to her page and the other links directly to the donor program. I hope that you will (please?) take some time and let me know more about you - particularly your recent hospitalization. Again, my spirit is lighter to have heard from you!
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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"Jon E. Waters"
Praise God, Praise God, Praise God!
It's a start,,,,, Thank you for all of your help!!!!!!!!!!!! May I have permission to install a hyperlink to your page? You have been an instrument of God...... I love you, in Jesus' Name, Jon E. Waters

Hello Jon; Of course you may link to me.
Hello Jon;   ~  Checked out your site, I love your "wastebasket" for peoples' troubles! You've done a good job - especially for a beginning. Yes, of course you may link to us! Thank you. I would appreciate it if you would put this banner up

as a link to the redemption/salvation prayer also as an invitation to anyone who might need or want to reach out to our Saviour. I am honored. Thank you, Jon. Love in Christ . You may link to our pages by the Misty Blue Mountain Award I'm sending for you.  ~   Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: Hello sweet Nina
Hi Nina, My mind/memory stays in a state of semi-confusion or just plain forgets. Staying off your feet is a VERY hard thing for sure!!! Do you have someone to help you? I will write soon - in next couple of days, for sure. Meanwhile my brother Jonnie (Jon Waters <> ) is thrilled and most appreciative of all the help you have been giving him. He is so very thrilled to finally have taken flight - to have a wonderful homepage! I want to thank you for all your help to him! Lots of love and hugs, A child of God - June

Hello June; I hope your day is a lovely one - it is almost like early Spring here. You haven't mentioned your health lately - how is it going for you? Your brother, Jon, is sweet. You continue in my prayers. {{{{{{{June}}}}}}}
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: Janet Leppelmier
Subject: frog riddles
I like your web page. I love frogs and these jokes were great!

Hello Janet; *S* I appreciate your letting me know you enjoyed your visit. If you come across any cute frog story, joke or riddle, I would love to add them to the pages which I believe are already the largest collection I have ever run across. I collect and categorize jokes and also love frogs. When I came across such cute little frogs .gifs and animations, it inspired me to do a page for/about them.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: "Terri-Lynn"
I just wanted to let you know that I found you prayer on Easter so wonderful that I hope you don't mind, but have added it to one of our Easter pages on our site.    I also have given you the credit for the poem as well as a link back to your site. If you would prefer me not to use this poem, please let me know and I will remove it from my site. thank you.   Your Friend in Christ forever ~ Terri-Lynn   The site where the poem is being placed is on our Holiday site at
is will appear on the Easter Pages which is 3213/easter/blessings.html as we have not yet finished our Easter pages it is not up for public viewing but you may visit if you wish. I thank you for your site, it is one that has really touched my heart, and I know I will be back often. I have not had time to view the complet site but what I have seen has been truely incredible. May God bless and be with you always.   Once again, I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for allowing me to use this wonderful and inspiring prayer.  Your Friend in Christ forever ~ Terri-Lynn

Dear Terri-Lynn; I am honored and pleased.
Thank you for letting me know. I would like to visit your homepage if you will send the link to me. *S* Hope that you will enjoy more of us....
Yours because I'm His, ~ Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: "James&Necie" 

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Subject: Your homepage
To: Judy York
Hello Judy; Hope this finds you well and happy. *S*
I once had your homepage bookmarked. For some reason, it is not in the guestbook with your message. Normally, if the person has a site - it is linked from there. Would you please send it to me? I remember your poetry. Your guestbook message was one of the most memorable I ever received, and it continues to soften the raw edges of pain when I read it again. This is the third year now, but I find that it is just as acute as memories of how Eric and I spent those last days in visits, plans and sharing communications by phone and mail in preparation for Easter and his graduation. They were very memorable and I am blessed in having them and a memory capable of reliving those good times. Unfortunately, memories also have a life of their own and I also, at this time of year, remember the agony as well. After I saw the two movies, Titanic and City of Angels, I found that several of the songs from the soundtrack-CDs have become as special to me as the ENYA music Eric and I loved so well. Odd, isn't it? How songs like.... MY HEART WILL GO ON (Love theme from ~TITANIC~) (my ERIC-song) And several from City Of Angles, can renew the aching and at the same time, sooth it as well!. In fact, two of those songs were played at the candlelight service the Monday following his death (before that movie was even made....) in his position as DJ - he often played two of them and that was why they were chosen for his memorial music which later was produced on a cassette and given to the students (and to me) as a musical memorial/tribute to Eric. Well, I'm just sending this along as a request for your URL. I can't fine it and am afraid that when I installed upgrades in MIES and in windows - or Win-98.... I either don't remember the name or somehow lost the link. I remember one of the poems which I liked of yours was called "TEA AT DAWN" Thank you again for the cherished message you sent last year.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

From: "Judy York"
Subject: My Home Page
My Dear Nina, What a lovely surprise... thank you so much for thinking of me. I think of you often and my heart hopes that there are more and more moments of peace and love in your life. This is, of course, what those that have stepped through the veil want for us, too. Three years is such a short time for a life wound to even begin good healing, isn't it. I know this because my soulmate best friend of 52 years lost her son, my Godson, 3 years ago, also. She has spent these last 3 years struggling to understand why she has to remain here without her David...the only answer there really is, is "because." Not much solace in that most days. But she, like you, continues on each day, working, giving, loving, trying, putting one foot in front of the other, because that's what life requires. Your sharing so openly of your love for Eric and his for you, as well as the grief, was the gift I needed so that I could better be there for said things she couldn't say, you expressed feelings she couldn't express, and that helped me know what she needed from me. So please know that the fine silken thread that binds all of us is alive and well, and that the Spirits continue to crisscross it, bringing us closer in heart than we could ever have done alone. You and Eric, I know, are carried in countless hearts and will continue to be carried along that thread to others, as they are to you. Nina, I know in my heart you are a wise and wonderful woman, and I thank you. ~ Love and Blessings, Judy

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From: (Walter Westfall)
Subject: Your Web Site
Hi Nina, I was touched very deeply by your beautiful memorial pages to your son Eric. The pages wre created with such love and sensitivity. Eric's thoughts and poems are very beautiful, and your thoughts and poems are also very beautiful. My mother passed away 4 years ago this month, and I still very greatly feel the pain of her loss. I would like to invite you visit my inspirational prose and poetry site at --
May God bless you and keep you with His love.
Kindest regards from, Walter Westfall

Hello Walter; Thank you so much for your kind and compassionate words to me. I appreciate your communication with me and visit to the site. Re: your mother, The first of April marks three years since Erics' sudden death. I go through a `count down as each April 1st approaches. I used to think that I was a rather morbid person to always deal with any problems before sundown (where the other party will) and to insist on standing at the door in the winter watching until the last sight of the vehicle carrying away any loved-ones, friends & family. I even did/do it with the school bus (and still do, as with my other three children, with Brandis' departures each day thereon.} In fairer weather I even go out on the rear deck to see them going up the hill-road if they turn left and go in that direction. I am often admonished to get away from the glass door where it is so cold (in winter). So I've cherished each moment and am not tortured with any of the regrets or missed opportunities which so many share with me in their mourning. I KNOW we cherished each moment. I used to often say, though, "You never know if it may be the last time we see each other!" With a smile on my face. I don't ever say that anymore, for it is already known by all - in Erics' tragic accident, and I just can't speak the words. I don't usually take so long to reply to messages. I do hope you do not think it rude of me that it has been a week. I visited your site. Quite a lot of pages to read, and I am only about 75% done, but wanted to send your awards (in separate e-mail) for your work. I've enjoyed your writings and the spirit of you revealed in them. Thank you for sharing with me.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

From: (Walter Westfall)
Subject: Re: Your Web Site
Hi Nina, Thank you very much for visiting my site, and your kind words about my site and writings. Also thank you so much for the beautiful awards. I am very honored to receive them. Both awards are very beautiful, and Eric's award is a very special award. I will place links with both awards, and also on my links pages. I appreciate that you gave me these wonderful awards, and feel that my site is worthy of them. I only got to read a few of Eric's writings the other day when I visited, but I plan to visit again soon to read more of his wonderful writings. He was a very gifted writer. Visiting your site helped me in dealing with the loss of my mother. I have felt such sadness and emptiness since her passing. That is why I started this site and my other genealogy site in memory of and to preserve the memory of my dear parents. Thank you again so much. May God bless you and keep you.
Kindest regards from, Walter Westfall

My dear Walter, you are most welcome!
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: "blankenship"
Subject: Sign In
Hello, like your page. I just opened it and will now read through it. Thanks.

Thank you. I hope you enjoyed your time with us.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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I juat now had the chance to get to your home page. What a tragedy you have endured. You and your husband are very strong people. I don't know what I would do if I lost my son. Life has not been good to me in a lot of ways, some my own fault, some because of others and the fact I am pretty kind hearted and gullible. Yet you took the time to write and comfort me I just want to say Thank You from the bottom of my heart. Your thoughtfulness is much appreciated. I hope can keep in touch. so much and God bless you both,   ~   Lynn and Flower in Wi.

Hello Lynn; Nice to hear from you again. I remember that I received an empty message from you and wrote to let you know about it so that you wouldn't think I didn't respond. I always answer my mail because I care about all who reach out to me. I appreciate each and every one. I care about their suffering and appreciate their caring about mine. I separated from my husband long before Eric was killed. Our divorce will soon be final and I plan to marry a dear, wonderful man. We both feel that God brought us together and God is wonderful! (Sometimes He saves the best for last! *g*). Who is Otis? Perhaps that is the missing information from your mail to me on the third of March? In Christian love,   Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (Dianne LaDow)
"The Three Sabbaths". Is this paper all there? I read it and printed it out and there is second "c" directly after the first "c" or is this a typo? I want to use this information to tell my grandchildren about how He could have been in the grave for a full 24 hours. Thank you for this information <>< † ><>
1Cor.1:l8 ~ For the word of the cross is folly to those who are perishing, but to us who are saved, it is the power of God……

Hello Dianne; Thank you for catching the typo. How old is the person you want to teach? I have some much more extensive notes on this - I had tried to simplify and streamline it as much as possible so that it would entice people to take a look into the scripture and see the simplicity of those facts, which some people are confused about (thinking it inaccurate or a contradiction in scripture when Christ said that he would be "As Jonah was....") , and some just shrug off, then try to cover-up in order to keep holding to the `traditions of men' rather than to the word.... Just as Christ said, He was three days and three nights `in the tomb' . If you would like the other notes - I will send them at your request. Again - thank you for bringing it to my attention about the "c" instead of the "d"! I will go and fix it right now! *s*
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

From: (Dianne LaDow)
Subject: Notes    ~   Dear Nina, I want to thank you for your wonderful notes. They were quite thorough. I also went to your homepage and found that you sell herbs. I have to travel 50 miles there and back to get the ones I can't grow and/or grow enough of. I have put your address in a file for future reference. What a blessing you have been in more ways than one. May God's peace and mercy be with you. Your sister in Christ, Dianne La Dow

Hello Dianne; Nice to hear from you again and that you were pleased. I wrote a lesson for Brandi once, and was thinking that you might like to use it for your worship time with the children? It is here. It was fun to do and made a real impression on her when we did it. *S* Also - I have a recipe for Easter Story Cookies. Did you ever make (or hear of) them? Check here and choose "Pinholes" from the list.
If you need the cooky recipe (with scriptures), It should be on that same page above, by Sunday. I have given it out for a few years and decided to go ahead and post it this year. *S* Choose "Easter Cookies" from same page.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (wilbur Tackaberry)
art  ~  Really a great site on the net. I have spent an hour and still plenty to see

Thank you, Wilbur.

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From: "HELL"
Subject: A Baby's Plea
Date: Fri, 19 Mar 1999 17:42:09 -0600
I just want to tell you
that in reading your poem, (
A babys' plea) I am hoping my ex-girlfriend will feel guilty about murdering my child that she will not go through and have an abortion. It made me cry.... If you email me back my email is Thank you so much ~ John Briggum

My Dear Friend, John; Thank you so very much for sharing that with us. We will be in prayer for your baby! I don't know where you are or who the mother is, but God knows all and He will know who we are praying for. Is the mommy a Christian? Most churches have access to help resources of every kind - from providing the essentials like a home and sustenance - to adoption and/or helping the mother and child after the birth too. Oh, I DO so hope that she will listen to your pleas and those silent inner ones from the new life developing inside of her. I care and would like to know how it turns out for your child. Would you please let me know? Also, you did not mention that you would prefer not to be in the guestbook on line, so I will wait for permission (just to be assured) to share your message after you let me know that you do or do not want it made public.... in the case that you would prefer to have it just between us in private. And yet - I would like to see this childs' fathers' love there for all to see! Let me know. Roger is also deeply gratified and blessed to know that his poem may help to save yet another life! I hope, John, that she will reconsider. I am blessed that you shared with us and we can stand in prayer with you for your strength and for intercession on behalf of your child! God bless... Write to us if you just want to talk... We care, we really do! Love and a hug from,
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)
& Roger Baker

From: (huskers fan)
Subject: Re: A Baby's Plea
Thank you for replying to my email. Yes that would be ok to post in your guestbook, but you would have to send me the address to the website so I could go and see it. I was on so many webpages Friday I couldn't remember where yall are..... Thanks again, John

Hello again, John; Any news as yet about the baby? We are keeping all of you in prayer. I do hope you will let me know how it goes for you. Our site is listed below my name here. It is a varied offering. I began it when my son, Eric, was killed just before graduating from Ferrum College. I began the site as a memorial offering of hiw writings and of tributes others made of him after he was killed. On the table you will find the prolife works& links at the lower left hand corner of the table you find. Re; surfing - I know what you mean - one thing leads you to one other and so on and on we go clicking our way around the globe in the wink of an eye and unless we check our history folder in browser - NO WAY could we remember them all! *smiling*     Thank you for allowing the guestbook entry. The fathers' side of the tragedy of abortion is so seldom spoken for! I am glad that you are trying to save yours! God bless you.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

Subject: Re: A Baby's Plea
Dear Gypsy: No mam there ain't no word yet, because she won't talk to me. I don't know why she all the sudden did this to me, she has. It happened last Saturday night. It has been a week, I was trying to block out the break-up, but yesterday was real hard on me. I cried myself to sleep last night, just thinking about the baby and what he/she is thinking. It just kills me to even think there is a slight possibility that my baby will be killed or stupidity. Thanks again in replying to my email and keep praying for me. ~ Love, John

Subject: Thinking and praying about you
Dear John; You, your baby and the babys' mom will remain in our prayers. Last night, my 9 year-old Brandi, prayed with me that "Johns' baby will be born for him". Let us know if you think about it in the future, we will be continuing thinking and praying for you all.
Yours because I'm His, Love and a special hug
From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: Cielita Howard
Subject: hello    ~   I just wanted to say God Bless you. Email address

Thank you Cielita, that is sweet of you. He's blessing us always, whether we recognize it or not. *s*  ~  Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: enjoyed your home page
Thank you for sharing your home page with us we enjoyed reading it and may God bless. ~ Margie and Don

Thank you, Margie and Don, for visiting and waving hello!
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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My husband is in an affair over 2 years I just found out. He has given her a lot of our money and now we are almost broke. He wants to come home & tell all. Please pray to God I can listen to the betrayal, lost love, lies, and suffering I have endured. Please pray he finds God and saves his own soul.   ~    Sincerely, Helen for Jim

Subject: Re: Prayer request
Dear Helen; I will pray for you both. While it is good to forgive, I hope that you will reconsider listening to his confessional details - it can only hurt you. The memories will not go away, regardless of whether you are able to truly forgive him or not. I suppose that you have already heard more than enough to know how deeply it hurts and haunts. It nearly cost me my life when I finally faced the reality. Please reconsider the wisdom of that choice to hear a `detailed confession'. It hurts enough already.... Hugs for you (((Helen!)))   ~  Yours because I'm His, Your Gypsy, (Nina)

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From: Kenneth Grant
Subject: Resurrection
Hi Gypsy (Nina) Just thought I'd share sumn with you... A week or so ago my 7 yr.old grandson was in Sunday School and the lessons were of the Resurrection
and the meaning of Easter.When He got home he was all excited about a project he had thought of on his own and was eager to get started on.His idea was to round up a whole bunch of toys and Jesus could hand them out to all the dead children when He went back to Heaven. We gracefully informed him that that the children really had everything they wanted and Jesus didn't hafta play like Santa Claus...Outta the mouths of babes...huh? That was it ...just thought I'd share it with someone.(S) ~ Light and Love ~ Ken (EZ1) (G)

Subject: Re: Resurrection
Hi Ken! (a `roomate' from 50+ chatroom) ~ I loved that! Thank you for sharing it! Our grandchildren (I have 8 now) are such a joy of life - our reward for sticking iti out so long on the planet with them - hmmmm? *grinning* Thanks again for sharing.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Date: Thu, 1 Apr 1999 10:03:43 EST
Subject: I read this and I cried Im so sorry this has happened. And if I had a magic wand I would make it better for you. Sometimes there is nothing anyone can say and this is one of them times.     But if you are ever on line and you need a friend Im here.
Sincerely, shae

Dear Shae; Thank you for visiting and letting me know you were here and shared with me. I appreciate the extra time you took to share your feelings with me, it was kind and caring of you. I have never heard/seen your name before, unique names always intrigue me. *s* Your e-mail name, SadShadows is also interesting. I would suspect that you are either a writer of poet..... ??? Thanks with a hug.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Many of you have become friends and we e-mail to each other from my private e-mailbox... Mattie and I have become friends in that way and so, the following was regular e-mail and not the guestbook mail... But I'm sharing this here because today is Erics' third Eternal Life birthday and Mattie sent special gift which is posted on the Awards pages... I thought it appropriate to share this portion with you today as part of the special day,    ~   April 1, 1999.

From: "Mattie Brainard"
Subject: For Eric....
Date: Wed, 31 Mar 1999 12:41:07 -0800
Hi Nina: Try this url now and see if you can get there now....  
Eric has been on my mind today so I'm over here now... I'm sending you a candle that goes on either side of the heavenly.gif for Eric.... I would like to link it Eric at nbaker/Eric.htm.... Is that ok? Or do you want me to link to one of his other pages? Thanks for keeping me in the loop here. I truly enjoyed the Easter letter (how true! how true!) and thanks for the warning about the Melissa virus...    I hope you know how much you are loved and appreciated... here on earth, in Heaven, at Rainbow Bridge... I've had a lot of comments when I take people to your page at FreeSoul from Missy's page... I think your words really make them think...and that is good.... Love you! Mattie

Hello Mattie, dear; Thank you so much for thinking of me and for the gifts - Shall I link to your main page or the angel page? I linked the others to your main one - but think that the new angel one would be best for this.... Let me know your preference. You have done a really beautiful job, Mattie! It is a good thing to help people build a bridge between sorrow and serenity when they suffer loss. You are doing a very special job at that... Your loving and compassionate heart and soul show in all the work you do to reach out in that way. Thank you again!~        Your choice to link to Eric was good and I appreciate it too! Perhaps Eric and I have been on your mind more now while I have been pretty melancholy and struggling with the physical and emotional pain at the same time. I will send you this excerpt to share with you (from a letter I sent to my fiance' this morning....) to share where I am and also how bright and uplifting your gentle and loving message was to my heavy heart today. I believe that our angels do communicate with us and sometimes they are feelings without particular words... I feel certain that your angels and mine whispered to you..... *S* <snip> It isn't just the anniversary tomorrow - it is that I am facing the reality of how severely I am disabled - that by no power of my will, need or desire, can I walk that little path to the rock. Even if I did not climb a ladder and go across to the jutting rock... where I feel such peace of mind and serenity come to me (as I wrote beneath the picture there on my index of homepage,) I would surely fall just trying to navigate the path there - especially that steep place beginning at the road. It is always a thin thread by which I am able to live with the melancholy which is there and aching so - and without the strength which is always renewed in that little trek - I am not only faced with the anniversary - but now, with the terrible & stark reality of how crippled I am (though not forever).... the two combined and here I am. I cannot even talk on the phone - I feel speechless, useless and emotionally crippled right now - even more than the physical. This is an emotion. I know that there is a way "out" of this with the new knees. Perhaps I will do them after all - but I must try the water therapy first... (in a few weeks now) Within the month, I will have that facility available to me. I wait on that and try to bear the daily pain which is, at times, utterly agonizing.... That is all I want to say about that... Trust me to Him, for I feel His presence very strongly. I know that "This too will pass" <snip>   ~   Love, hugs and prayers, Mattie, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

Subject: Re: Eve of the third anniversary of Erics' April 1st death
Date: Wed, 31 Mar 1999 15:03:39 -0800
My dearest Nina... rest this time, my friend, and let Eric come to you. He will, you know. The gifts for Eric are to be linked to the Heavenly Angels page, and now I know why he has been so insistent today. He has a Heavenly Birthday tomorrow! I thought that this was mine and Missy's gifts to you, but the gifts are to you *through* me and Missy. Do you understand? Eric has given you these gifts, Nina. I know the ways of angels and bridgekids can be puzzling at times; but, as long, as we just let them guide us, we seem to be in the right place at the right time. I always light a candle for you, my little gypsy... so, though, you may not see me often in email, you are always in my thoughts. <snip>
Love and Light, Mattie   ~   I'm tucking in a very gentle hug for you, too....

Date: Thu, 1 Apr 1999 09:06:11 -0800
Hello Mattie; I placed Erics' special gifts from you here
Thank you again dear One. It is raining and dark today.... I doubt that I would have been able to get to Freesoul even if I could walk! So that is a small comfort and I have stopped feeling so deprived as I did when the weather was so lovely (and I thought it would be today too.) Love you, thanks again SOOOoo much, Mattie. It looks lovely on the page.
Yours because I'm His, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (name withheld by me)
Subject: Ballad Of The Unborn

(Although this submission did not request privacy, I chose to withhold her identity. It was beautiful of her to share this with us. It is enough. She walks with God now. The messages are published here perchance they might touch another who might be considering abortion or may be suffering in the aftermath of having already had one.) This was her desire in sharing and so the words are here.)

I am a born-again Christian now, but when I was 16 I had an abortion. I was confused and my mother said it was the best thing to do. I live with this pain every day. I know that this is no excuse, but I hope and pray that Jesus and the baby will forgive me. When ( read your ballad, it tore me up. I wish I had been told something like this before I ahd done it. I will never know that child. I am pregnant now and have two other children who I cherish with all my heart but I still keep thinking of how selfish I was in deciding on whether that baby would live or not. Thank for publishing that ballad, maybe it will save someone else from making the choice that I did. In Christ, ~L

Dear ~L~; Thank you for sharing with us about your pain. Since you are a "born-again Christian, you know that God has forgiven you and His Son, Jesus redeemed you whiter than snow. Please remember to turn away from the guilt that Satan, who is our only accuser, always making us feel as though what Christ did was not enough to take away our sins - so he is always reminding you so that you will feel bad and unworthy. Even if you had never done anything bad at all, your worthiness comes not from what you do or don't do - but in who you are in Christ. That cleansing is so precious - do not let Satan take away the joy of it... Rebuke him! Let it make you even more glad that you belong to Him now and would not make that choice again. He does not want you to remember what you did or were, but what and who you are right now in His name! *s* Try to do what God has done with it - throw it as far as the East is from the West and let go of it. He wants you to also! And just think - He even gave you more children. He knows that you are a loving and good mother. The Bible says that when we are children we think like children and act like children. You still trusted your parents to help you do what was right. It must have been very difficult for you. But you are brand new now. That baby you never saw, was taken in a guardian angels arms and straight to Eternity without suffering what the rest of us have to go through.... It is a very special treasure to Him and in a way - even to you, if you just refuse to listen to accusations. Believe what Jesus says - NOT Satan.
You are loved. We are one in Christ. ~ Love and a warm hug,
From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: too hillarious
I laughed and laughed at all those funny froggie jokes....I hope you come out with some more soon....Thanks...Candace

You are most welcome, Candace. Perhaps if you come across any new frog-jokes, you would send them to be put up? *smiling* I love them too! *RVBS!*
Yours because I'm His, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Received this joyous news from John
Subject: Re: Thinking and praying about you
Hello. I don't know if you remember me. But I talked to my ex girlfriend and she is not gonna get an abortion. So I just want to thank you for praying for me and all the encouragement you gave me. It looks like it may work and I will be come a daddy. This is one easter I will remember forever. Thank you so much. John

Oh, my dear John! I am so very pleased about this news, and so very happy that you shared with us! Thank you~!!! Brandi (9 year old) says that she wants you and the mommy to know that we really cared and prayed and hope that you might write sometimes and tell us how everything and is going. I hope so too! *S*. I hope that you have had a lovely Easter. You will have many, many more and when you get to share them with your child they will be the best of all! *S!* ~ We had a lovely family Easter. My mother worked all day to make different oriental dishes (we all especially love egg-rolls) and we took coconut pie and coconut cake for dessert. I have always understood about the sacrifice and blood atonement of our Lamb of God for redemption.... But the most incredible thing to me, is the wonder of His leaving heaven and actually taking on all of our human frailties for all those years... THAT is such a great love that it is all I can do to comprehend that He did it for us! And for love of us! Oh, how I love Jesus! And in Him, we love you too, John. Hope to hear from you again.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: Teresa King
Subject: your sons' memory    ~    Thank you for being so unselfish that you share your sons life with the world. Our prayers are with you all..... Teresa King

Thank you Teresa, for writing to me. I appreciate your letting me know you were visiting. Thank you also for prayer for us. I hope that you were blessed in your visit.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (Louise Willis)
Subject: INSPIRATIONAL!!!!!!   ~   I was checking out the information on different flowers when I came upon your comparison of the constant rejuvenation and renewal of
"The Pansy" compared to Gods' renewal of our spirit and life. It was so inspirational and quite an analogy. Thank you so much. I wish there was a way for me to forward it via e-mail to some friends. It is so evident that you have a deep abiding faith in God and also that you appreciate His handiwork. MAY GOD BLESS YOU. A sister in Christ, SISTER IN CHRIST, LOUISE WILLIS compared to Gods' renewal of our spirit and life. It was so inspirational and quite an analogy. Thank you so much. I wish there was a way for me to forward it via e-mail to some friends. It is so evident that you have a deep abiding faith in God and also that you appreciate His handiwork. MAY GOD BLESS YOU. A sister in Christ, SISTER IN CHRIST, LOUISE WILLIS

Hello Louise; Thank you for sharing your apprecian of the analogy. You are welcome to share it with your friends... I only ask that you include my name. I am enclosing for you, a copy of The Pansies (attachment here) which you may send out in mail even if they aren't online.   ~   God is blessing us. *S* Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: (Stanley Kaminski)
Subject: Thank you   ~   My niece Just sent me your beautiful prayer and I just wanted to say thank you for putting it on the web.

Dear Stanley; You are most welcome. Thank you for writing. Hope you will have a beautiful Ressurrection Day tomorrow with family, friends and loved ones.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: WEB PAGE
Mrs. Baker': I sit here with tears still in my eyes. I have not read everything as of yet, I feel what you and your son had to say is best absorbed over time, so that I may really enjoy and feel the depth of each writing. God bless you for taking the time to make this wonderful tribute to your son, I'm sure it has touched many.
Sincerly, Kym Lehde

Dear Kym; Thank you for sharing your appreciation. Erics' simple, yet great desire, was to be read and touch the lives of others. I am always blessed in knowing and hearing from each of you who experience him and fulfill his desire.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: "bevd"
Subject: sign in  ~  Your site is very informative and attractive. thank you. love, grandmomBev

Dear Bev, Thank you.
Yours because I'm His, your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: gloria
Subject: Esther & Abbey
My dog Esther died in October I really have not come to terms of her death unti today. My roommate owned her mother, a dog named Abbey. I went with Barb today to put Abbey down and then we buried her. Abbey and Esther both died of a stroke. The strokes involved many systems. It seems unfair that even though they were old (Esther was one month short of 15, Abbey would have been 17 next month) that a stroke would take out their lives. Barb and myself both dreaded making the decision to put the girls down. We hoped they would go quietly in the night... Abbey and Esther loved life. They were active to the day they had their strokes. They both enjoyed being loved and cared for from they day they were born. Esther loved running and chasing rabbits on our daily walks and runs. Abbey too, enjoyed going for walks and exploring new places. I bet that today they had a happy reunion. Esther is now showing Abbey all the fun places to run. Their arthritis does not bother them now. They are as free as puppies! Dear Lord Jesus, watch over our two girls. ~ Gloria

Subject: Re: Esther & Abbey
Dear Gloria; What a beautiful thing that you and Barb have shared so much joy and sorrow in sharing a home and love for your pets. I know how sad this must be for you both, because I'm sure that you both feel the loss not only of your OWN, but each others' pets, deeply! And the losses being so close together! How sad. I do hope that you will honor the love you shared with your Ester and Barbs' Abbey and open your hearts, home and love to another duo. *S* People who love and cherish pets have learned that it truly is blessed to give love, and that is the greatest lesson of all lifetimes. It is such a loving thing to do to be merciful and not allow them to suffer. You are wonderful souls.
Thank you for sharing with me about your loss.
Yours because I'm His, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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"Art & Cathy"
Subject: Bless you!
Nina, Thank you for taking the time to put together such a beautiful web page. My visit provided a spiritual uplifting for me and it brought me peace. Woodstock has a special meaning for me since my parents lived and died there not that long ago. I miss them terribly and I often surf the net looking for reminders of the wonderful times I had in the beautiful Shenandoah Valley. That's how I stumbled onto your page and since I don't believe in coincidence, it obviously was meant to be. It took hearing about your loss to put mine in its proper perspective and make me thankful for their life. Thanks, I needed that! ~ Art Messenger

Dear Art <& Cathy>; Thank you so much for writing and sharing with me how you were blessed in visiting. I know I say this all the time, but it is SO heartfelt when I say that messages such as yours are the balm my aching soul will always need! I just feel warm all over when I see the fulfillment of His promise to use ALL things for good. Sadly, I have seen so many who are not able to see how He does this in our lives... If that were the case when trials and sorrow come to me - I doubt that I could survive. But I feel His presence and I see His works and there is such a bittersweet joy which goes all through me when I see how He uses my sorrow to comfort and strengthen others and then uses them to do the same over and over again for me! 2 Corinthians 1: 3 & 4 ~ Woodstock is such a relatively small town, I may have even known your parents, having had a business here from 1979 until Eric was killed. Thank you again. You have blessed me.
Yours because I'm His, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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From: Karen Stern
Subject: Re: new reader
Hi. I came upon your site because I was trying to research my own kerataconis. Your words to your son are beautiful and I ache for you. I haven't had an experience like yours before but it seems like you had a very special relationship with him. I'll keep reading... Thank you for sharing your thoughts with so many of us! -- Karen

Hello Karen; Thank you for writing. I hope that you find plenty of information about Kerataconis. We ended up at John Hopkins, Dr Stark, Wilmer Eye Clinic. There is much more information now available. Erics' case was an even rarer form in that it effected the entire cornea (Kerataconis-globis) and was very pitted as well. We were told that his was the worst case they'd seen. We had taken him to various specialists considered the top in their field of expertise, but each one apologized after their examinations of Eric and said that they wouldn't even TRY to do transplants because his corneas were extremely thinned due to the protrusion and pitting.... Each said that they even doubted that the TOP doctor (Dr Stark) in that field would likely not even attempt it. All agreed that he was the TOP, (best) expert - so we just went there (our own doctor Dr. Keenan arranged for it all). I still remember the relief and gratitude which flooded all through me when Dr Stark seemed entirely at confident and agreed to put him far ahead on the list. The only problem was that it would be a "one-shot" chance.... unlike the opportunity that most have to re-do the surgery another time or times if it failed, for his corneas were too thin to offer a second chance. Unfortunately, when we had the second eye done, there was some small leakage the next day and this caused the vision, which they measure right away, to deteriorate immediately. It never did do as well as the first surgery. Actually, though, the doctor had chosen to do the best one first, so we were not very disappointed, for Dr Stark had already prepared us that it might happen, as the other specialists had warned - due to the thinning. However, it was still good in that it saved the eye itself and the vision "helped" the good eye as well. That's about all I can think of to share about that. We were very blessed that he was given those years of vision, for he SOOOOooooo loved to read and did it every day of his life. He consumed literature with an avid love and dedication. (His second passion was films, or, more accurately, I would have to call it his third, for MUSIC was his first love!) The wonderful thing about Erics' passion for things, was that he honored all who gave their best in their individual fields which combine to produce the music or films.... He never, ever left a theater without reading every credit on the screen! He read all the information on music folders/inserts too. He read magazine articles about the people as well. Eric not only knew the actors and actresses, but the hairdressers, gaffers and even the post-production experts who work unseen in the editing rooms! *S* Eric amazed all of us who were ever privileged to share our lives with him! He was so very informed and shared everything he  knew with others so that they could catch the spark of enthusiasm which he had about whatever he did. In fact, the night he was killed, he had gone to town to get some late-night food/fuel because he had been asked to tutor a student who needed his help. Funny..... how you think about all those little details when a few seconds more or less would have killed another driver if Eric had not been at that spot at that exact time.... All the `if-only thoughts'! They did not torment me much though, for his death came so instantly that there was no moment to suffer or even know that it was happening (the insulation material which blew out into the road covered the front and side (drivers' side) windows. (There was a car behind him which witnessed what happened)..... Well, I did not mean to go on about that. ! I would like to know how your condition turns out for you. Write when/if you feel like it. *s* Love, hugs and prayers for you, Karen  ~ Yours because I'm His, From your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Subject: tribute
I was surfing the net and I happed to run across your site. It really moved me I had almost forgot that dark morning so long ago. It almost brought me to tears. I could not think of a better tribute to Eric. Just to let you know ever April I still drink a bit of Jim Bean in his memory. I got to get to class I just wanted to say thanks for keeping the flame alive. Drop me aline some time. Later, Don Kaserman

Hello Don; Thank you for writing to me. *S* I cherish all of you who knew him and continue to carry him in personal memories and experiences shared with him. Every time a friend or acquaintance contacts me, it feels like it is a bit of Eric because of that residence he has in you. Tell me more about you? And any memories which you might feel
like relating to me would be appreciated. I enjoy hearing little memories, thoughts and experiences which others sometimes share with me. Eric would be so amazed to think that he had made such a long-lasting and profound mark in the lives and hearts of so many! Both Noel, (Raj Roy) and Brian Aldridge, are in ongoing supportive communication with me. Brian was here just two weeks ago and will stop by again on Mothers' Day weekend when we might be able to take a trip up to Freesoul..... Thank you again for writing to me!  ~   Love and hugs, Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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Date: Thu, 22 Apr 1999 13:48:12 EDT
Subject: Enjoyed Your Web Page
Really brought a chuckle, but unfortunately, I could relate to about everything. But if we can't laugh, we might as well be dead. ~ Cherub

Thank you, Cherub, for letting me know you enjoyed your visit.
Yours because I'm His, Your GYPSY, (Nina)

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