from an injury which resulted in unexpected
surgeries (2) which removed the meniscus from both
knees (joint replacements are scheduled for the end
of February).... It
has been a year of continued healing and adjusting
to Erics' death.
Brandi, for the first time in six years of going to
school (she began going at three years of age!
*smile*)... Has not missed ONE day! We are all so
thankful and pleased with this improved health and
immunity. Only one Asthma spell... so we might be
experiencing that "outgrowing it"
phenemona which I've heard about and we've all
~guestbook~ archives have grown to twelve! *WOW!*
Thank you to all of you who have shared your
thoughts and emotions there to reach
out to others. The grief support
ministry has been
beautiful and healing experience to us all.
After a five-year continuous separation, I am
in-between divorce and remarriage. Our
for you all is that the coming year will be
the best `ever' in your lives. We're
that here too!
*smiling* When I marry - I
post the pictures on page...
Brandis' journal .... update
Brandi went through some painful experiences this
and consequently, we did not keep her
online journal. She has said that she would like to
begin to do it again in 1999 - so look for that in
late March (after the surgeries) in case she begins
them again. (I think she will)
Cherish each and every moment
with your loved ones.
I believe that my lifelong practice of that is the
most sustaining strength I have
(past, present and future,)
now that memories are all that I have left of Eric
to comfort me.
We cherished time and each other.
That is more than many people have while they yet
exist in the same houses.
How I wish that everyone
would see that each moment is a precious potential
for stored-up treasures
which we may draw from forever....
Create them, dear brothers and sisters....
create them now.
Don't let a day pass without depositing something
into that memory-bank
which will brighten your days when clouds move in or
a bright star in your life leaves you in a
forever-darkened world without them.
no regrets or wasted time
to add to my burden of anguish.
How glad I
of that! But I have heard from
many who , (heartbrokenly), do have those
regrets - and
they are more overwhelmed by that than by
the absence of their beloved lost loved one!
Some, it seems to me, from their sharing, ....
will not forgive themselves, and in some
hold the anger against their loved one as well,
who has , they feel, "abandoned them".
us so cherish our time with loved ones
that when either we , or they, depart this
earthly realm, we can feel the joy of their arrival
*home* with our Lord, and be grateful for, and
comforted in, the time we did have, rather than
angry about time we no longer do have together.
my dear brothers and sisters,
Remember! Our Christ said....
St. John, 14: 2, 3, 4
In my Fathers' house are many mansions: if it were
not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a
place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for
you, I will come again and receive you unto myself;
that where I am, there ye may be also. And whither I
go ye know, and the way ye know. "
Here are some of my favorite quotes from the year...
snowflake is a very fragile thing, by itself.... but
just look what happens when they stick together
always miss 100% of the shots you don't take.
don't care how much you know until
they know how much you care.
hardest thing in life to learn is which bridge
to cross and which to burn.... David
cannot do a kindness too soon, for you never know
how soon it will be too late......
want to repeat this from last year....
I grieve....... sometimes to the point
of near incapacity on certain days - I would NOT
wish that God would return Eric to me here, in this
world, from Paradise! More often than
not, my grieving is more my own strong desire to go
Don't we all?
had a wonderful son, in Eric, with me
for almost 23 years . If you
count, as some countries do, the time he and I were
one together, almost 24! And I can
honestly tell you that I cherished my son from the
moment I knew of his presence in my womb!
We loved and lived well. I thank
God for that nature which He created in
me. I pray that I can adequately share
that with you and that you will open your heart and
soul to a new awareness and perhaps a new way of
life and relationships. People ask me again and
again, how I have "gotten through it".
That is the answer! This is the best I could hope to
give to you all.
coming here, and visiting with me and my loved
ones. From our house to
Blessed Holidays !
and Blessed Everydays, Aways!!!
Love, Your GYPSY, Nina & Family