I
have missed being able to come here and work (since
November 11th) but surgery and healing take time and with
two feet done at once, that time is not spent in an upright
position!! ! *S*
Brandis'
journal
will begin again in January!!! We promise!
I
also hope to be at work here some more by
February. But I've come to wish you all
well during the holidays.
Cherish each and every moment with your loved
ones. I believe that my lifelong
practice of that is the most sustaining strength I have
(past, present and future,) now that memories are all that
I have left of Eric to comfort me. We
cherished time and each other. That is
more than many people have while they yet exist in the same
houses.
How I wish that everyone would see that each moment is a
precious potential for stored-up treasures which we may
draw from forever.... Create them, dear
brothers and sisters.... create them
now. Don't let a day pass
without depositing something into that memory-bank which
will brighten your days when clouds move in or a bright
star in your life leaves you in a forever-darkened world
without them.
I
have no regrets or wasted time to add to my burden of
anguish. How glad I am of that! But
I have heard from many who , (heartbrokenly), do
have those regrets -
and they are more overwhelmed by that than by the absence
of their beloved lost loved one!
Some, it seems to me, from their sharing, .... will not
forgive themselves,
and in some cases, hold the anger against their loved one
as well, who has , they feel, "abandoned them".
Let
us so cherish our time with loved ones that when either we
or they depart this earthly realm, we can feel the joy of
their arrival *home* with our Lord, and be grateful for,
and comforted in, the time we did have, rather than
bitter or angry about time we no longer do have together.
For,
my dear brothers and sisters,
Remember! Our Christ said....
St. John, 14: 2, 3, 4
"
In my Fathers' house are many mansions: if it were not so,
I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And
if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and
receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be
also. And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know. "
Although
I grieve.......
sometimes to the point of near incapacity on certain days -
I would NOT wish that God would return Eric to me
here, in this world, from Paradise!
More often than not, my grieving is more my own strong
desire to go there too. Don't we all?
I
had a wonderful son, in Eric
with me for almost 23 years -
and if you count, as some countries do, the time he and I
were one together, almost 24! And I can honestly tell you
that I cherished my son from the moment I knew of his
presence in my womb! We loved and
lived well. I thank God for that nature which He created in
me.
I pray that I can adequately share that with you and that
you will open your heart and soul to a new awareness and
perhaps a new way of life and relationships. People ask me
again and again, how I have "gotten through it".
That is the answer! This is the best I could hope to give
to you all.
Thank
you for coming here, and visiting with me and my loved ones
here in our cyber-home.
From our house to yours,
Blessed Holidays !
and Blessed Everydays, Aways!!!
With
Love, Your GYPSY, Nina
